Thursday, February 8, 2024

Thursday, February 8, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2003. Mattie was ten months old and was sitting on our living room floor completely surrounded by his toys. Some how I instinctively knew to snap photos of Mattie. Not just on occasions or milestone moments, but practically daily. I am so thankful that I did because these pictures help me keep Mattie's spirit, energy, joy, and memory alive. They also enable me to share Mattie's life with others. 

Quote of the day: We should never underestimate the powerful draw of a bond with a being that loves us unconditionally, asking very little in return. Losing this comfort and source of joy can be incomprehensible. ~ Linda Lipshutz

Last night I made the mistake of allowing Indie to sleep in my room. She was very clingy yesterday and at bed time, she wanted to remain close. So I fell asleep with Indie next to me and she enjoyed a great deal of attention. 

But Indie is a night owl. At 1:30am, she awoke, was running all around the room and hitting her head against the bedroom door. Meaning she wanted out! She woke me up out of a deep sleep and unfortunately after I let her out of the room, I had a very difficult time falling back asleep. Which is why I have been dragging all day. In my house, there is NO down time, and no time to recover!

While doing my morning routine, I was derailed with a phone call from one of our banks. There was an issue with one of our accounts and literally this call was like a domino effect. It created chaos and confusion in my house, enormous stress, and truthfully by 11am, I felt like I went ten rounds. I landed up not eating breakfast or lunch today, because I was that strung out. 

Later this afternoon, I brought one of our garbage bins to the backyard, as I am determined to clean out the last BIG pile of sticks and fallen limbs. It will take me another week or more to slowly clear out this pile. In any case, as I was wheeling this large bin down the driveway, it fell back on me, pulling me down. My knee hit the pavement very hard and one of those large branches scratched my face badly. It came very close to my eye. I literally was flat on the driveway and of course there wasn't a soul around to help me. So I had to pick myself up, get myself inside, take Advil, and start an ice routine, while making dinner. This is my fourth fall in less than a year. Most of my falls are due to the fact that I am pushing or moving something too heavy for me. 

Look what came in the mail today! A hand painted creation of my Sunny! Our cousin Cheryl, sent this meaningful gift which was designed by https://cityowlstudios.com/! I will cherish this painting always as it captures the beauty of the Sunman. Sunny's death has been a big blow to me and I am deeply grateful that those close to me understand this profound loss. 

My friend Angie, from Rhode Island, sends me a Valentine's Day gift every year. Angie and I went to graduate school together in Boston. It has been years since we have seen one another, but our time together has forever bonded us. I am honored to be remembered and am touched that Angie brightens up my February every year with sweet treats! This year she also included a Sunny remembrance. I am not sure what I have done in life to deserve such devoted friends, but I am grateful for all this love and support. 

My Sunny remembrance area is coming along. I would like to add a collage or two this this wonderful composition, and I know in time I will make this happen.