Tonight's picture was taken in April of 2009. That afternoon, we took Mattie to the hospital garden. This was a place we escaped to on warmer weather days. I will never forget that space, because it provided us freedom from the hospital unit, the ability to see greenery, and to get fresh air. If you haven't experience the dry and cold air within a hospital, then you are lucky. After a while, it feels very sickening. What this photo captures is me with my all time pal. Mattie trusted me to make the right decisions about his care and it was very daunting knowing that I held the life of Mattie in my hands. There wasn't anything I wouldn't have done to help Mattie, but what cancer taught me is that wishes, prayers, and all the best intentions sometimes can't change the outcome.
Quote of the day: The greater the difficulty, the more glory in surmounting it. Skillful pilots gain their reputation from storms and tempests. ~ Epictetus
Today did not go at all as I had planned. I thought my dad was going to go to his memory care center this morning. However, since he was discharged from the hospital on Saturday, his in-home care agency had to send the nurse to assess my dad and as well get a physical therapy evaluation. All of which HAD TO HAPPEN TODAY! I have to tell you, I do not like surprises. I would have preferred knowing this on Sunday, so I could have better prepared for today. My dad's in-home care agency was just lucky that I did not have anything else scheduled today, so that I could keep my dad home for the day with me. But since I care for my mom as well, I juggle her needs and doctor appointments too!
Any case, in between juggling these appointments I also had a Mattie Miracle board meeting. I am fighting to get a breast MRI, and don't get me started about my second floor furnace. Which doesn't work! Truly by 2pm, I felt like I went ten rounds. Jumping from one task and need to the other. Of course, neither of my parents can interface with the health care professionals alone. I must be present, to answer questions, provide a summary of my dad's hospitalizations and current medications.
It is 6:15pm, and I am so anxious and need to do something. Which means, tonight's blog will be shorter, because I am headed outside to the garden to do more painting of my deck. Until tomorrow.
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