A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



February 4, 2024

Sunday, February 4, 2024

Sunday, February 4, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2006. Mattie was almost four years old. The beautiful flower pot in front of us was an item that we won during Mattie's preschool auction. It was designed by Mattie's  classroom, because all the children placed their thumb print in paint on the pot. As you can see, Mattie was beaming to know that this flower pot was now in our living room. 


Quote of the day: We are our pet’s heaven, and just because their physical body is no longer alive, it doesn’t mean their soul loves us any less. We are loved from beyond and always will be. ~ Lyn Ragan


It is hard to believe that this week Sunny will be gone from my life for one whole month. Time marches on, but the spirit of this incredible dog lives on forever. I spent several hours outside today and it was very noticeable who was missing. My side kick and buddy! 


After my usual morning routine, I got my dad settled in his chair and then I went to our backyard to do more stick and branch collections. Our property is surrounded by the dirtiest trees... poplars and a huge river birch!

I dragged out our garbage bin to the back and started the massive pick up. Earlier in the week, I removed one big pile and today, I cleaned up another pile. However, we have one gigantic pile left and it will take me a few weeks to break it down, put it in the bin, and have it collected by our trash service. On these 50 degree days, I am inspired to be outside and get yard work done because I know there is one of me, and I have to do it a little bit at a time. 

The two piles of branches and limbs that I cleaned up this week bordered each of my neighbors' properties. I try to think about others all the time, and I know if I lived next door to me, I wouldn't want a direct view of these wood piles. So I was motivated to get this work done. I celebrate all the things I can accomplish, because truthfully there is so much that has to be done. It is like I am holding back the ocean, and I am a dam under distress. 

Other things occurred today, which I am not reflecting upon here. Suffice it to say, I feel very hurt and I will leave it at that. 

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