Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2002. Mattie was a month old and this was a quiet moment in the living room together. I can still remember that sweet, soft, and little head against mine. Mattie and I shared a closeness, a meeting of the minds and heart with each other right from the beginning. As Mother's Day approaches, the impact of his loss is still greatly felt.
Quote of the day: Courage is about learning how to function despite the fear, to put aside your instincts to run or give in completely to the anger born from fear. Courage is about using your brain and your heart when every cell of your body is screaming at you to fight or flee—and then following through on what you believe is the right thing to do. ~ Jim Butcher
Every morning I wake up and wonder.... will today be a more peaceful day? Today wasn't such a day! After I dropped my dad off at his memory care center, I came home and got my mom in the car. She had a rheumatology appointment at the hospital. We joke all the time, because my mom has an easier time accessing Prolia than I do! I am still waiting for pre-authorization since March! My mom's doctor is lovely and after the appointment she sent us to the hospital lab for blood testing.
But I was watching the clock because I had to return home to meet my electrician at 1pm. Needless to say, I was never able to take my mom out today for tea, which she looks forward to on days my dad goes to his memory care center. I was so busy with the electrician that I never had lunch. I worked with the electrician for about three hours. The front lights are now working! There are extension chords that my husband ran from the porch to the driveway, in order to get electricity to that space. When the extension chords were plugged into each other, there were no extension chord waterproof covers installed. So imagine connecting one extension chord to another, and the junction where the two chords meet wasn't covered and protected from the elements. So with the huge rain storm we had two nights ago, the plugs from the chords got wet, and triggered the GFI to trip. Any case, I located chord covers in the garage cabinets and we installed them today. So the issue that I thought was going to be hard, turned out to be an easy fix. Overall, Bob was impressed that I diagnosed the issue, I just did not know where the extension chord covers! Now I know they are needed.
From there, we went into the backyard. There were two outdoor lights not working. Bob showed me how to change one of the lights and that was easy. But the the second lantern light was a major problem. He and I were on this issue for two hours. We dug up the wires to understand where the issue originated from and despite rewiring it, the light still doesn't work. So after all of this, I still have an issue. So I called for an appointment with my landscaper to see if he can figure out the problem.
What I can say is I have become problem solver extraordinaire. Bob was impressed how I was working with him in the dirt, trying to trace where the wires went into the lantern light. I want to learn how things work because I am solely responsible for everything and need to be self reliant. What my separation and divorce have taught me is NEVER rely on anyone for anything. I must be self sufficient, knowledgeable, and in control of all aspects of my life.
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