A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



December 19, 2019

Thursday, December 19, 2019

Thursday, December 19, 2019

Tonight's picture was taken in December of 2002. That was quite the day! It was our first snow fall for the season. I got inspired and put Mattie in a Santa suit and brought out his entertainment saucer onto our deck. Peter was snapping photos and I was jumping around in the background trying to get Mattie's attention. This photo was on the cover of our 2002 Christmas card. 




Quote of the day: All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveler is unaware.Martin Buber


Last night a sore throat ensued. Today it didn't get any better and by the time I got off the plane, I am sure I am running a fever. 

This is the third cruise I am headed on in which I am feeling very very tired and worn down. Not a good way to start a cruise, because unlike what some may think, cruising is NOT relaxing at all. 

This photo captures the DC National Mall. A place we walk with Sunny often. 

It was a clear day in DC. The sun was shining over the National Mall. It was a stunning flying day. 
The Foggy Bottom neighborhood. Home of the Kennedy Center and the George Washington University. 
In my plane seat pocket, I saw a familiar face staring at me. Check this ad out for the movie, A Dog's Journey! Does this not look like Sunny???!!! Meanwhile, I got two messages today that Sunny is NOT eating. Not even his snacks. I am used to his starvation diet when I go away. It is like he goes on strike to tell me his is displeased. 
Our first flight landed in Charlotte, NC. Notice it was Sunny there too!
Charlotte from the air. 
This was our descent into Fort Lauderdale. It was raining and foggy and it is scheduled to be like this for the next three days. 

Once I landed, I absolutely panicked. I panicked because I do not want to go on a cruise without antibiotics in case I get another full blown sinus infection. Which is what I had the last two cruises. So I literally called me doctor's office and demanded antibiotics. I did not get my doctor, I got her partner. Who I am not wild about. She is rather rough around the edges and has a sharp personality. Not a good demeanor for me when I am not feeling well. Any case, I totally snapped at her condescending attitude and needless to say I got antibiotics. But does it need to be this difficult? She should be able to see my history and I am not medication seeking. I only seek it when there is an issue. An issue that I get practically every December and January. 

Many cruise ships, like this Carnival one, were in the Fort Lauderdale harbor today. I am headed to rest and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. But embarkation day from my perspective is always stressful as Peter and I manage many logistics. 

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