Tuesday, October 6, 2020

Tuesday, October 6, 2020 -- Mattie died 575 weeks ago today. 

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2002. Mattie was 6 months old. As you can see, I took Mattie outside into our commons area to do what he loved the most.... walk. Mattie had no interest in sitting still and forget about crawling. He wanted to move and his "tot wheels" made that possible. We had the perfect enclosed space for Mattie to zoom around, to learn to fly a kite, and to learn to ride a bicycle.  

Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

• number of people diagnosed with the virus: 7,488,372
• number of people who died from the virus: 210,637

Do you ever feel like hours, minutes, and days are just flying by, and yet you don't feel like MUCH is different? Some days I feel like I get up and the next thing I know it, it is time to cook dinner. With a chunk of time in between, where I don't get as much done as I once did! It is very frustrating and on a subconscious level stressful.

Somehow, to me it is the first week of October, but in actuality it is the second week. Which means that Friday, I have a licensure board meeting. Yet if I did not receive a follow up email today about it, I have to tell you I would have completely tuned out to that my attendance was required. It simply wasn't on my radar scope, nor were the hundreds of pages of minutes and documents I have to read to prepare. This is a first for me, as I never am this disoriented. I blame living in limbo since March for my confusion. 

The one highlight of the day for me are our big afternoon walks with Sunny. As we were walking today, look what was standing in the middle of the path ahead?

Mama deer with her baby. Mattie would have LOVED this sighting. As he was always intrigued by mothers with their children. He liked to compare these sightings to him and me, and Mattie would typically say "that's just like us!"