A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



November 3, 2020

Tuesday, November 3, 2020

Tuesday, November 3, 2020 -- Mattie died 579 weeks ago today. 

Tonight's picture was taken on Halloween of 2008.....Mattie's last Halloween. He was home recovering from his first limb salvaging surgery. However, that year, Mattie celebrated Halloween twice. He went trick or treating at the hospital (pictured here) and then later with his friend Zachary. Mattie was very strategic about picking out his costume. He was allowed to go to the outpatient clinic and be the first child to pick out a costume. I will always be grateful to Mattie's art therapists and child life specialist. They knew that Mattie was very self conscious about his bandaged arm. Mattie was also concerned about being around other children who would potentially knock him over for hit his arm. So having private access to the costume room was brilliant. Mattie carefully examined each costume and then picked the mummy costume. He felt that it would cover his bald head and his bandaged arm. Making it seem like he was just a kid and NOT a kid with cancer. 


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins

  • number of people diagnosed with the virus: 9,365,360
  • number of people who died from the virus: 232,484


Given the role I serve with Mattie's Foundation, I try to be apolitical. I keep my ideas to myself, because childhood cancer is non-partisan, and we work with people on both sides of the aisle. 

Tuesday is my grocery shopping day. Yes I have a schedule! I am sure that surprises no one who knows me. In any case, I went grocery shopping and two things were very evident! One the shelves were empty like during a snowstorm or crisis and two, there was a big sign on the grocery store door saying they were closing today at 10pm. Which is unheard of for this store! Why? Because of the election. What kind of world do we live in that we have to worry about our personal safety, boarding up stores and businesses, and residents in cities having to worry about stock piling of food and paper products? In fact, our neighbor the George Washington University sent out an email this week saying....... students and faculty should prepare for potential protests by having food and other necessities stored in their dorm rooms or homes.

In fact, I came across this article entitled, People are stocking up on money, fuel and meals to prep for potential Election Day unrest — ‘It’s not a pure catastrophe. It’s an election.’ Click on the link if you want to read it for yourself. For days, maybe weeks, this level of fear, uncertainty, and anxiety have been all around me. I hear it on TV, radio, and from my neighbors. I think walking into the grocery store today actually jolted me into reality about the dangers that could  potentially be heading our way in Washington, DC. Needless to say, on top of living with lock downs from Coronavirus, we have to worry about potential violence as well. All of this has great mental health consequences, because wherever we are, we can't find peace. 

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