Tonight's picture was taken on October 18, 2008. Mattie loved pumpkins.... pumpkins for decorating and also anything pumpkin flavored. In fact until I had Mattie, I despised anything that tasted remotely like pumpkin. But because Mattie loved it so much, and he would want me to share in whatever he was eating, I grew to love pumpkin almost as much as him.
Quote of the day: Any fool can be happy. It takes a man with real heart to make beauty out of the stuff that makes us weep. ~ Clive Barker
This morning I went to Georgetown University Hospital to meet with one of Mattie's nurses, Debbi. Debbi was Mattie's sedation angel and as Debbi always jokes with me.... Mattie did not like her. It wasn't so much that Mattie did not like her, but when he saw Debbi, he knew that she was coming to sedate him for a procedure or scan. So unfortunately Debbi became symbolic of scans/procedures. Yet of course Mattie knew the alternative, which was having to undergo these scary and long procedures without sedation. We weren't going to allow that to happen! Since we learned from our first experiences in the hospital, that doing scans without sedation was a mistake for Mattie. Without sedation, Mattie was so frightened that he would land up crying and hysterically hiding underneath the scan machine. Ultimately unable to get the scan! The only thing that did result from his oncologist's decision not to use sedation was the start of anxiety.
While walking on Georgetown's campus, I passed Mattie's memorial stone. Mattie's stone is located in front of the entrance to the main building of the hospital. In front of the building is a lovely open air plaza, and Mattie's stone is located right by the yellow pansies. 
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