A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



December 14, 2021

Tuesday, December 14, 2021

Tuesday, December 14, 2021 -- Mattie died 637 weeks ago today.

Today's picture was taken on December 27, 2008. As you can see, Peter was hamming it up with Mattie. Peter was trying very hard to cheer Mattie up and to break through his depression. Mattie had very short lived moments of fun and happiness. But for the most part it was a very difficult Thanksgiving and Christmas for us. Mattie, by that point, had medical traumatic stress and unfortunately his doctors did not believe us. That was until he returned to the hospital for a check up and to continue treatment. Mattie was hysterical. He did not want any one coming near him, and forget about examining him. It was very clear FINALLY to his treatment team that there was a psychosocial problem and NOT a reaction to pain meds. 


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 50,216,029
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 799,845


I spent some time on the phone today trying to get my parent's medical and dental records transferred to my doctors. I made some headway. 

One of the things I worked on today was taking our Halloween pumpkins and transforming them into pumpkin apple soup. I have done this before, but NOT since Mattie was alive. So that is how long ago this was. Frankly ever since Mattie died, Peter and I haven't purchased a pumpkin to display at our home. That is until this year. 

Cutting a pumpkin is a workout! I forgot how difficult it was. I chopped up three out of our 9 pumpkins. 

The final product!




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