Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.

As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

April 5, 2021

Monday, April 5, 2021

Monday, April 5, 2021

Tonight's picture was taken on April 4, 2009, at Mattie's 7th birthday party held in the hospital's child life playroom. Next to Mattie is Brandon, Mattie's best buddy! Mattie and Brandon were diagnosed with cancer a month apart, despite their age difference, they were close friends. I will always be grateful to Brandon. Even when Brandon finished treatment, he would come monthly to the hospital to visit Mattie. That may not sound like a big deal, but it was, since Brandon lived over an hour away from the hospital. Mattie had a great time at his party. He spent the morning decorating the playroom, and a handful of friends from school came to share the day with Mattie. 

Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 30,775,094
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 555,381

I have had a cluster headache for a month now. How I am functioning is beyond me. The pain is excruciating and gets severe at multiple times during the day. Especially while sleeping. I find that my best sleep happens at 5am onward. Given that I get up at 6am each day in LA, I am not getting much sleep. Which compounds my pain. 

What I wasn't expecting was being jolted awake at 4:44am! I was awoken to the feeling of being shaken! Furniture was rattling all around me. I immediately grabbed my phone, which confirmed I experienced a 4 magnitude earthquake. Honestly it is very unsettling because what I feared was this could be the pre-shock, and a bigger one would happen! After the shaking, I went to check on my dad, who appeared to be sleeping. Yet when he came down for breakfast, he reported being awake. 

When I was in high school, I will never forget we had earthquake drills. I remember the first drill we had, and I honestly did not understand what was going on. Fire drills I understood, earthquake drills as a New Yorker, did not mean too much to me. But I learned the art of dropping, covering, and holding on philosophy. The natural instinct when facing a crisis is to run, but in an earthquake, sheltering in place is the safest thing you can do! 

Over the years I have experienced both types of earthquakes... shaking and rolling. Today was shaking! Given that I am not a person who likes movement, especially movement I can't control, earthquakes are scary! 

1 comment:

Cheryl said...

How very scary! I am so sorry your headache is continuing unabated. I would think that lack of sleep is not helping any of it. How you are doing everything every day, is more than I can imagine.