A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



February 19, 2022

Saturday, February 19, 2022

Saturday, February 19, 2022

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. Mattie was in the child life playroom at the hospital and you maybe asking yourself..... what on earth was this? Well Mattie, with the help of his art therapists, constructed a BIG roach out of model magic and colored it. Honestly it looked a lot like a real roach. In any case, that day Mattie built a beach with umbrellas for the roach. Because don't all roaches need a beach vacation? Leave it to Mattie! Believe it or not, I still have this roach in one of Mattie's keepsake boxes. I really do not understand his fascination with roaches, other than the simple fact that I hate them! Mattie loved seeing my reaction to even the mention of a roach. 



Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 78,452,782
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 934,865

Someone is desperate for attention! When Peter goes away, Indie is beside herself! Last night, she was on Peter's side of the bed. She truly is a very loyal and loving cat, and thankfully not high maintenance like my boy Sunny! Look at Indie's head! She loves looking at us upside down!


Peter sent me this photo! This deer was right outside his parent's kitchen window! If only Sunny were there!

It was a very busy day for me. Non-stop chores until about 2pm. I got my dad up a little later this morning, around 9am. Before getting him up, I made breakfast and left my mom at the table eating. When I got upstairs, I moved the covers off my dad and found that he had a new depends on around one leg. But NOT on! I gathered my mom handed him a new one to put on, not realizing that he most definitely can't do this activity independently. Of course seeing all these declines is emotional, but I guess I am so used to caring for people, that I compartmentalize this feeling, in order to do the task at hand. 

When my dad was finally showered and dressed, we came downstairs. At the breakfast table, I found my mom slumped over, face down in her plate. Nothing was wrong with her, other than she fell asleep right in her plate. I am monitoring my mom and her situation, which I feel goes beyond being wiped out from two years of caregiving. Needless to say, after breakfast, I insisted she go to the couch to rest. By 11am, both of my parents were sleeping in the family room. 

My dad spends more of his day sleeping than conscious. I had to rule out a cardiac reason for this, but it confirms what I already deduced..... it's his moderate stage of dementia. I am jumping back now to do more chores, but am managing with Peter away. Sunny of course perks me up and get me out, moving, and engaging with the active world. I may have rescued Sunny, but the rescuing goes both ways. 

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