Tonight's picture was taken on November 19, 2008. It was post surgery and though Mattie was struggling, look at that smile. Despite the fact that three out of four limbs were operated on, Mattie found the inner strength to have hope and to smile. He truly is a role model for all of us.
Quote of the day: There is not a reason for everything. Not every loss can be transformed into something useful. Things happen that do not have a silver lining. ~ Megan Devine
I have been under enormous stress lately. So much so that I am having trouble sleeping and eating. In fact, within the last month, I lost ten pounds. Today I went to see a therapist. It is ironic. I studied mental health counseling, am a licensed professional and NEVER went to counseling personally. Other than graduate school experiences which were required. I even managed to cope with Mattie's cancer diagnosis and death. However, I am at a crossroads in my life and what I have noticed is that one trauma has a way of re-igniting past traumas.
Any case, it feels very different going to counseling, when you are a professional yourself. In fact, I would say we communicated differently together than if I was a non-mental health professional. I am a bundle of anxiety and truly did not even need her guidance or direction with conversation, as I can clearly talk straight for an hour. That said, I found this individual very present, a good listener, and helped to normalize another very abnormal situation for me. I do think that in challenging times in my life, different people present themselves. People that I may not have ever expected to be there for me.
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