Tonight's picture was taken in November of 2002. Mattie was seven months old. A friend of mine sent me this big entertainment saucer when Mattie was about three months old. When I first received this gift, my first reaction was.... wow this thing was huge! I felt it was going to take up half of our living room. Which was true! But this saucer was a blessing. Mattie loved being able to stand, twirl around in the chair, play with all the gadgets attached to the saucer, and he even would jump up and down in this saucer. It was one of the only things I had that enabled me to safely put Mattie down and he could entertain himself for a bit!
Quote of the day: The remedy for most marital stress is not in divorce. It is in repentance and forgiveness, in sincere expressions of charity and service. It is not in separation. It is in simple integrity that leads a man and a woman to square up their shoulders and meet their obligations. It is found in the Golden Rule, a time-honored principle that should first and foremost find expression in marriage. ~ Gordon B. Hinckley
I came across this quote tonight about divorce. I have to tell you that most quotes do not resonate with me. If I hear one more platitude such as..... you have to be kind to yourself, you have to take care of yourself, or accept yourself, love yourself, keep moving forward, I could actually have a hissy fit! All of this is trite and all of this is like a verbal bandage to someone who is bleeding out.
However, tonight's quote made perfect sense. It was written by a religious figure, not of my own faith, but none the less, captures my feelings about marriage. Separation and divorce are the easy way out (in my case I mean, I am certainly NOT talking about for everyone, and realize there are times when divorce are absolutely necessary). Integrity, obligations, and the golden rule. YES! Walking away and leaving me, a person who has been in a long term relationship for 35 years, is downright cruel and selfish.
But what I absolutely can't stand is the horrid debris all of this construction is leaving both on my property and in the circle. I met up with some neighbors last night and they are losing it with the garbage all over the circle.
Because no one else is going to deal with this, I took it on. I spent two hours this morning sweeping and picking up such things as:
- pulverized leaves from heavy trucks parked in the circle
- water bottles
- bottle caps
- metal fragments
- plastic fragments
- banana peels
- candy wrappers
- paper towels
- napkins
- paper receipts
- cigarette butts
- and a TON of sand and dirt!
After two hours of this, I had to run back inside, clean off, fold laundry, and then take my parents to brunch. I had worked so hard that I got an ocular migraine in both eyes. It is a very scary and daunting experience, but since I have gotten several of them in the past, I know not to freak out because it impacts my vision. I see things in waves and it is like having lightning bolts, flashes of light in my eyes.
As a sole caregiver, I have no time to recover. So I popped a migraine rescue drug and two Advil. That enabled me to function and drive!
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