Sometimes a dog's face just speaks to me! That is how I felt about Sunny! I knew I would love him, his photos spoke volumes to me. If my life looked different right now, if I had more financial and emotional stability, I would be putting in an application for Roxy. As I learned when I adopted Sunny..... I may have adopted him, but he saved me. He re-engaged me back into the world, and made me feel a part of something. There is nothing like the love of a dog. Sunny's presence and spirit are missed daily.
My plan was to go grocery shopping this morning as soon as my dad's physical therapist arrived. However, before I left, I settled my mom in the family room, because she looked exhausted. I got her in a chair, legged propped up, a heating blanket on, and then I turned on the TV. That is when the chaos began. I couldn't get the cable box to work. I kept getting a VMS (Video Management System) troubleshooting error.
Since I faced this same error on our main TV two weeks ago, I knew I had to try to reboot the box, unplug and then plug in chords. But then I realized I had to call Verizon, the problem was over my head. I was on the phone with Verizon for an hour. Poof, there went an hour from my life! Needless to say, Drew, the cable miracle worker, got the system working again. He introduced me to my VMS box in the house, showed me how to clean the coax cable and restart the system. This is the beauty of remote monitoring and a video phone call!
After that issue, I ran out to go grocery shopping. I dislike shopping on a Saturday because stores are always crowded. But I had no other choice, as I couldn't go during the week. Because I know this store well, I zoom around from one aisle to the next. You truly don't want to get in my way when I am in this mood. Though self checkout has a maximum of 20 items, this store knows not to bother me, because I want to always do self check out and I always have more than 20 items. I have very little control in my life! Therefore, self checkout is one area I can control. I can control how things are bagged and I bag things in a logical way!
When I got home, I had to put groceries away, fold laundry, and then take my parent's out to lunch. We went to two different places. The first restaurant, I walked out of because it was too crowded and the person who typically serves us wasn't there! That may sound odd, but who waits on us, makes a big difference to our experience. The second restaurant, is getting to know us. I had a long conversation with the manager today, who is originally from Greece. He is only 28 years old and told me when he came to America, he landed in NYC. He couldn't afford living there, so was homeless for months. He described that experience and how he has now built a good life for himself. I love hearing these empowering stories!
For the past month, I have been watching Hallmark Christmas movies at night. The last time I was glued to Hallmark movies was when Mattie died. In fact, after his death, I could spend days in bed, just watching these movies. Why do I like Hallmark movies? Because there is always a moral message and there are NO unhappy endings. I have enough reality and pain in my life, therefore, I do not need to absorb it through my TV screen as well. Hallmark has a series of "God Wink" movies. As tonight's quote points out, a God Wink is a coincidence, but with divine intervention. The exact movie I saw was, A Godwink Christmas: Meant for Love. What I particularly love about the God Wink movies is that they are based on true stories. I would love to be transported right into a Hallmark movie. Where the love between a husband and a wife, is real, honest, and built on trust, respect, and commitment. To me, when I met Peter in college, it felt like a God Wink. I may always remain disillusioned, confused, angry, and sad that my perceived strong, vital, and healthy marriage, was actually only viewed that way by me.
The main characters in the movie are Alice and Jack. One of the things Alice is facing in the movie is a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. She did not want Jack to feel obligated to care for her, and therefore pushes him away. How they come back together is priceless, as he used big poster boards outside her apartment window to communicate to her. My point to this is, this is the kind of husband I thought I had. The kind that did not walk away under any circumstance. It is mortally wounding to know how wrong I was.
Here is a link to the real Alice and Jack, who inspired this touching movie:
https://www.today.com/popculture/coincidence-love-first-sight-leads-amazing-reunion-after-50-years-2d79795750
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