Mattie Miracle 2021 Walk was a $125,000 success!

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.

As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

January 17, 2020

Friday, January 17, 2020

Friday, January 17, 2020

Tonight's picture was taken in January of 2003. Mattie was nine months old and I was able to capture the joy and laughter of Mattie. He was on the floor and playing with toys I had all around him. Mattie typically did not like being on the floor, so this particular moment was short lived. But I am so happy I captured it!

Quote of the day: When we quit thinking primarily about ourselves and our own self-preservation, we undergo a truly heroic transformation of consciousness. ~ Joseph Campbell

I think tonight's quote is poignant. I am not sure exactly what context Joseph Campbell was speaking about, however, when I read it, I think about parenting in general. As raising or caring for another human being, requires you to think beyond yourself and your own needs. In fact, while caring for Mattie throughout his cancer treatment, I would say my consciousness about life, the world around me, and my overall priorities were transformed. I would say the experience transformed me so much that I have been unable to return to the person I used to be. Instead, I have evolved into who I am today, and though Mattie is no longer alive, I would say my lens and focus remains on his needs. Of course his needs are no longer tangible. Instead, I nurture his memory and legacy through his Foundation.  

If Mattie were alive today, he'd be a senior in high school. I am very aware of the fact that his friends and classmates are applying to college and families are managing the stress of that process and trying to determine next steps for their children. I can't relate to that stress, but I certainly can empathize. I honestly can't believe that Mattie's cohort went through preschool, elementary, middle, and high school. They are evolving and somehow I am stuck in 2009, with Mattie having completed only kindergarten. Look at all the years we missed with him! I have no idea what Mattie would have been like today, or even what subject matters would have caught his attention. 

Yet Mattie was once part of the class of 2020. His class will be graduating in June, and in my opinion one important student will be missing from the event. But what does a school do for such a missing student? Does the school give the family a high school diploma for a child who has died? Some schools do this, as I know this directly from a fellow bereaved mom who is my friend. Yet there are no easy answers for the school community or the parents! Other than I am quite aware of the fact that graduation conversation is all around me. I am also well grounded to know that this conversation bothers me, angers me, and saddens me all at the same time.  

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