Tonight's picture was taken in September of 2007. That day, Mattie and Peter invited me out on a rowboat. We traveled down the Potomac River. This was a regular occurrence for the boys, but on this rare occasion, Mattie wanted me along. Most likely to show me the skills he was learning. Naturally I never went anywhere without my camera!
Quote of the day: I will welcome happiness for it enlarges my heart; Yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due; Yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge. ~ Og Mandino
It was another depressing day in the National Capital region. Rain, more rain, and grayness. This kind of weather impacts my mood and spirit. Overall it was not a good weekend for me. However, no matter how I feel, I have to keep it together as I am caring for both of my parents, who are very dependent.
I have found the only way to survive difficult times is to keep busy. Or as I call it, having.... diversions! I would say this is how I lived my life during the first six months after Mattie's died. Back then I wasn't sure which way was up or whether I had the energy to even shower. But somehow back then I got involved in craft projects and became glued to Hallmark Movies. I remember literally sitting in bed, with the TV on and craft items all over the bed. That was my therapy.
My current therapy is constant activity! Cooking, cleaning, caring for my parents, Sunny, and Indie. Though I could have had a meltdown in the corner today, I did not. I went grocery shopping, walked through the food aisles (which I happen to like), and then came home and baked halibut, yams, and made an arugula salad. Good food and eating brings me happiness. There are times I can feel bursts of anxiety coming on or even a migraine with nausea. But I try to work through these feelings and walking outside to see Sunny (even in the rain) is another gift.
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