Tonight's photo was taken in September of 2006. This was classic Mattie. He loved playing on the staircase in our townhouse. That particular day, he grabbed a cat toy and tried to engage Patches. As you can see, Patches did not seem amused. Mattie and Patches had a good connection with each other and Patches seemed to naturally understand that when we brought Mattie home from the hospital (after he was born), that she had to be on good behavior and look out for Mattie. I miss both of them.
Quote of the day: I'm gone now, but I'm still very near, death can never separate us. Each time you feel a gentle breeze, it's my hand caressing your face. Each time the wind blows, it carries my voice whispering your name. When the wind blows your hair ever so slightly, think of it as me pushing a few stray hairs back in place. When you feel a few raindrops fall on your face, it's me placing soft kisses. At night look up in the sky and see the stars shining so brightly. I'm one of those stars and I'm winking at you and smiling with delight. For never forget, you're the apple of my eye. ~ Mary M Green
My grandmother was a very kind, sweet, and gentle soul. She was a born caregiver and took this role seriously without ever complaining. Truly remarkable. My grandfather died from colon cancer before I was born. So by the time I was on the scene, my parents and grandmother were living together in the same house. As a child I thought everyone lived in a multi-generational household. I am glad I did, as I learned a lot from my grandmother and in many cases viewed her as a second mother.
It was not a good day. In fact, this week, I reached a whole new low. I did not even think that was physically or emotionally possible. But you know the saying.... things can always be worse?! Well it is true. It makes you want to appreciate whatever moment you have because truly whatever stability we think we have can change on a dime. I continue to learn this time and time again.
The one miracle and blessing, is that we learned that Sunny's cancer is stable today. I realize Sunny's situation is fragile, but with cancer, I have learned to appreciate stability. Sunny is on his last chemotherapy option. The last two drugs he took, did not work. After a full day with my parents, taking them to lunch, hearing my mom's lament and tirade over and over again at lunch, I then drove to the vet with my parents in tow to retrieve Sunny. Sunny has trouble getting into the car, so I had to lift him. That's 64 pounds, in and out of the car. Once I got home, there was countless chores, that literally took me over two hours to complete. There are times I feel like I am being punished and apparently this is my fate in life. I am hoping tomorrow is a better day.
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