Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2004. Mattie was almost two years old and by that point was talking, walking, and fully on! As you can see, Mattie decided he wanted to wear my shoes. He put them on and went clopping around our home. The funny thing is I can remember doing this same thing as a child with my mom's shoes.
There was something about raising Mattie that brought out another side of me, a side more open to exploration, adventure, and expanding my comfort zone. I learned so much during my seven years with Mattie, and I feel these lessons guide how I lead and live my life.
Quote of the day: Your place I’ll hold, you will be missed, the fur I stroked, the nose I kissed. And as you journey to your final rest, take with you this … I loved you best. ~ Jim Willis
This morning after my usual routine, I got my dad to his memory care center, and then went grocery shopping. I have gone from a person who liked to interface with people in the store and I even preferred going to a check out line manned by a person, to now, I want nothing to do with anyone, and I prefer self check out. I guess I like self check out because I feel I have more control of checking out items and bagging them in a way that makes sense to me. It is amazing how one issue or problem in our lives, can alter how we deal with other things in our lives.
Once I got home, I dealt with unpacking groceries, folding laundry, managing my mom's breakfast dishes and prepping her for her in home physical therapy session. When my mom was going to be with the therapist, I had big plans to do some work! Forget it. I instead received one call after the other, after the other. I was dealing with multiple issues at one time, that by the time the calls were done, my head was spinning.
No time to process anything or regroup, because by that time, I had to take my mom out for tea. Even while in the car, I received a phone call from my mom's long term care insurer. From that call, this led me to reaching out to my mom's doctors to obtain more health related information. Truthfully it was a crazy day!
When I finally got home, there still wasn't peace. I had to get my dad settled and then the fun began with helping my mom pay bills. I assure you this is very stressful. It is hard to explain unless you spend some time with my mom. Each month I have to figure out her bills and my own. This alone is a huge undertaking on top of everything else I am facing. Once bills were dealt with, I was on to making dinner. Some times I feel like I am on a treadmill that instead of slowing down, just seems to pick up the pace. I truly believe my current life could be a case study, and I hope what I learn can help so many others in my shoes.
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