Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2009. Mattie received this gift from a friend. He worked on it all day. Mattie had to mold colorful clay into the plastic template. I WAS NOT a Sponge Bob fan, which was what intrigued Mattie to like this character even more. It is ironic, when your child has cancer, things that you may have steered him away from before, didn't seem to matter as much. Cancer puts everything into perspective! That evening, I wanted to snap a photo of Mattie with his Sponge Bob creation. As you can see, Mattie was in NO mood to pose, so he instead, he did this! Even sick, Mattie had a good sense of humor, and I will never forget my seven years with him.
Quote of the day: I understand it, but I don't like it. I wish we could all be together like before: best friends, not heartbroken strangers. ~ Amy Plum
This morning when my alarm went off, I was so exhausted, I did not want to get up. What compels me to get up, and have the stamina to face another day is beyond me. I rather throw the covers over my head and ignore my reality altogether. I am tired of meeting everyone's needs. Listening to my mom's non-stop conversation, juggling bills, cooking, cleaning, caregiving, and of course heartache.
Three things I am grateful for:
- Having friends who care about me, who want to listen and help.
- The morning deer sighting.
- Being healthy. This morning while dropping my dad off, I passed the kidney dialysis center (right next to my dad's center). I could see a patient being transported who clearly was unable to walk and was very sick. I never take a health day for granted since Mattie's diagnosis.
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