Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2006. Mattie was four years old and that day he went with his best buddy Zachary to a Day Out With Thomas. Mattie and Zachary were huge train fans and what I love about this photo was they were all business! On a mission to find Thomas!!!
Quote of the day: I have emotional motion sickness. Somebody roll the windows down. There are no words in the English Language. I could scream to drown you out. ~ Phoebe Bridgers
I had high hopes today that I could work on the Foundation's 15th anniversary video. Every post-walk season, I create a video for supporters. I have been determined to work on this video for the past few weeks, but life has gotten in the way. I have been compiling photos for days now and today I sat down to try to get the first couple of photos loaded onto the video program! As starting is always the hardest step! Or so I thought. What was the problem??? Well Microsoft has removed my beloved Video Editor! You should have seen me! You would have thought I was dealing with a fire in the house! For me it was own personal crisis.
Each day I am on overload, juggling everything and having to be a jack of all trades! It is hard enough to create a video from scratch and display the content in a meaningful way! But today I learned that I NOT ONLY had to be creative but I actually had to find a whole new video program and teach myself how to use it! I was livid, upset, and overwhelmed all at the same time. Why can't one thing be easy??! Given the nightmare I live each day, it is not like I have hours to myself that I can concentrate and figure things out. I am a one woman island and the only way things will get done is if I do them!
Now in the midst of all of this, I am still dealing with my mom who is sick and my dad who had three bathroom accidents. Not to mention cooking, cleaning, serving, and meeting demands. Any case at the end of the day, I downloaded Clip Champ and I have taught myself how to use it to create a video! I can't tell you how many things I have had to teach myself since Peter left. You would think with each new thing, I would gain confidence and be less anxious! NOPE! This hasn't happened yet. Each hurdle I have to jump over is just that, DIFFICULT. If it is possible for one's nerves to be on hyper alert, then I am there. It reminds me of the simple fact that I miss having my husband, a person I grew up with and shared all of life's many moments. I now face all these moments alone.
Three things I am grateful for:
- Super glue. Mattie's angel statue fell from the outside plant stand and its head and wing broke off. Thankfully I was able to fix it.
- Taking deep breaths and reminding myself, I can figure this out!
- The antics of Indie, the cat, who keeps me on my toes, and reminds me to stop moving from time to time, to give her plenty of attention.
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