Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2002. Mattie was six months old and he received a pumpkin placemat in the mail from Peter's mom. We gave it to Mattie and you can see his fascination with the color and texture. With Mattie, I am not sure if he learned more from me, or vice versa. What I do know is that life was never boring with him.
Quote of the day: Losing him was like having a hole shot straight through me, a painful, constant reminder, an absence I could never fill. ~ Jojo Moyes
This morning, after I dropped my dad off at his memory care center, I went to the post office, as I had several Foundation items to mail. When I got there, I needed some help determining how to mail a particular item. The mail clerk was clearly in pain and she began telling me about her root canal that she had yesterday. Having had three root canals during 2020, I recall the process distinctly as well as the pain. She was a delightful person and I appreciated her kindness, especially when she herself was having a bad day. It is amazing how one positive human connection can lighten a difficult moment.
Today I received many gifts. My friend and colleague wrote to me and she basically said....that she hopes I can make it through the day, week, month, and year. She said that I am the bravest, smartest, resilient, toughest person she knows.
What her comment showed me was she is aware of the deep pain I am in, even though we are geographically no where near each other and we haven't had a live conversation. But she knows me, she knows my devotion to Peter and Mattie, and therefore she connected the dots.
The second surprise came in an email. Someone I attended fifth grade with found my email address and wanted to connect with me. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. She says she never forgot me or my friendship. Very touching. Before Peter left me, I would have immediately responded to this message. Now, I proceed with caution, because I am unsure of people's intentions.
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