Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

January 14, 2024

Sunday, January 14, 2024

Sunday, January 14, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in January of 2006. Mattie was four and half years old. That day we did a special project in Mattie's preschool class. I baked two gingerbread houses from scratch, made royal icing, and brought in all sorts of candies for the children to decorate the houses. This was a priceless activity. The kids were thrilled and one child couldn't get over that the royal icing, which looked like glue, was edible! Mattie was able to bring home the final products. I am so glad I volunteered to do this activity and got to see Mattie interacting with his classmates and to have created these memories. 


Quote of the day: Heaven goes by favor. If it went by merit, you would stay out and your dog would go in. ~ Mark Twain


Me with my buddy in September of 2018. Sunny loved going on walks and adventures. That day we took him to Great Falls in Virginia. In fact, we walked there many times especially during COVID (before parks were shut down). Sunny was graceful, surefooted, and navigated and traveled over rocks and hills with such great ease. Honestly he made walks far more fun, engaging, and happy. Since Sunny died, the notion of going out for a walk is just sickening. 

When we first got Sunny, at age 5, he was FULL of energy. Because he was a herding dog, he needed tasks and responsibilities. So I learned early on that Sunny needed several walks a day, one of which was several miles long. Sunny was all about scanning, observing, sniffing, and tracking down and chasing rats and squirrels in the city, and fox and deer in the suburbs!

This morning I slept in until 7:30am. That may have been my latest morning wake up in over two years. I just couldn't move. I am dealing with so much grief, loss, and trauma, that it has worn me out to the core. 

After getting my parents settled this morning, I started piling up Sunny's medications and bagging them. I will be taking them back to the Hope Center, along with four bags of donated doggie items. Since Sunny was given five different chemos and other toxic medications, I just did not know how to safely dispose of them. Fortunately the vet has agreed to accept all of these items for us. 

Sunny was diagnosed with cancer in March of 2022. In this two year time frame he was on the following Chemos:

  • Palladia (10mg)
  • Lapatinib (350mg)
  • Lomustine (3mg)
  • Toceranib (60mg)
  • Melphalan (1.4mg)

What I do know is Indie seems to want to fill the void that Sunny has left. Of course she can't in my book, but she is much more demanding, clingy, and now when we come home, she is right by the door meowing her head off at us. This is something she never did when Sunny was alive. As she knew this was Sunny's role and that I always addressed Sunny's issues and needs first. 

When Mattie died in 2009, I observed the impact of his death on both our cat, Patches, and our neighbor's dog, JJ. JJ would literally come to our townhouse door every afternoon and sit on the rug. He also took a sandal of Mattie's and slept with it in his crate. JJ's owner told me that he did not eat for days and looked depressed. Likewise, Patches, our cat, spent months in Mattie's room after he died and would sleep right on top of his pillow. Something she NEVER did when Mattie was alive. Patches and JJ prepared me for what I may see now in Indie. Our furry friends are indeed perceptive, sensitive, and they have an innate sense of loss and its impact. 

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