Mattie Miracle Walk 2023 was a $131,249 success!

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

January 18, 2024

Thursday, January 18, 2024

Thursday, January 18, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken on January 12, 2009. Mattie was in New York City, to start his experimental treatment. He was required to start it in NY, but would then get his weekly dosage at his home hospital in Washington, DC. The NYC hospital had a very large child life playroom. In fact it was cavernous, not unlike a big train station. It truly was cold, impersonal, and frankly no one interacted or communicated with each other. The NYC staff were told by Mattie's care team in Washington, DC that they needed to save packing boxes for Mattie. I think they thought that was one bizarre request, but they did it! Mattie created this big plane out of boxes. The funny part was we actually loaded this big plane into a yellow NYC taxi and brought it back to our hotel room. It never made it back to Washington, DC, but for the time we were in NYC, Mattie loved that plane.


Quote of the day: Dogs leave paw prints on our hearts. ~ Pam Brown


Today is Day 8 that Sunny is no longer part of my life. How I miss that loving boy! This photo was taken in September 2018. We took Sunny to the DC Aquatic Gardens. A place we loved taking Mattie to, and in my opinion it is one of the best kept secrets in Washington, DC. A little slice of paradise! Filled with wildlife and amazing lotuses, irises and water lilies. Sunny was always up for an adventure. He loved walking, exploring, and most of all being with his family. It is true, I may have rescued Sunny from South Carolina, but Sunny was the one who rescued us. He enabled us to love life again, to re-invest in the world, and to allow happiness into our home. 

On this portion of the kitchen counter, for the last two years, was occupied by bins. The bins were filled to capacity with all sorts of medications for Sunny. I donated these medications yesterday to the Hope Center and once I cleaned off the counter, I placed this little shell dish that Peter gave me for birthday (2023) in the empty space. Each acorn in the dish was collected from my many walks with Sunny in September and October 2023. So seeing these acorns remind me of Mattie and Sunny. Amongst the acorns are two trinkets.... one is a sunflower and the other is a butterfly. Both very symbolic to me, as the sunflower will always represent Team Mattie and the butterfly reminds me of Mattie's beautiful life. Now when I see both of these special symbols, I will think of Mattie and Sunny. It is my greatest hope that Mattie has officially met Sunny in heaven. 

After I got my dad up, showered, dressed, and had breakfast, I took him to his memory care center. After which I did grocery shopping because I knew snow was predicted for Friday, and I suspected that my dad's memory care center would be closed (unfortunately I am correct!). Once I got home, put away the groceries and folded the laundry, I made insurance calls for my mom. I listened to her on the phone the other day, and I could tell she couldn't logically present her case and the person on the phone wasn't following her. So today, I spent an hour working out her dental claim and other issues.

At noon, we got in the car and I drove to the city for my urology appointment. Keep in mind that the last time I went to this practice was in 2021. Since my parents moved in, I haven't been keeping up with this specialist and my bladder care. Given that I have been struggling with urinary tract infection symptoms for a week, I knew I had to get this addressed. My mom insisted on coming with me and I drew the line when I went back for my exam. I wanted privacy and she waited for me in the waiting area. 

I wasn't sure how the office staff was going to deal with me. Why? Well first I hadn't been to the office for regular check ups and second, I got my physician friends to prescribe me antibiotics. Which of course makes the urology practice's job more difficult in determining what is wrong with me. I explained to the practice that I am dealing with inordinate amounts of stress, which I believe triggered my illness. When I told them about caregiving full time, being separated from 35 year relationship with my husband, and Sunny dying, they immediately got it. In fact I would say every woman I interfaced with today was human, kind, and tried to help me. I went in ready to do battle and advocate for myself, but it wasn't necessary. 


Despite the kindness, I still had to endure an internal exam, which wasn't pleasant on a good day, and even worse when not feeling well. By the time this ten minute nightmare was over, I did not know if I could walk, stand, or drive the car. Of course that wasn't an option, and I pushed through the pain. Since I have been on two different antibiotics in the last week, they prescribed me a powder antibiotic called Fosfomycin. I have never taken it before. Basically it is a powder that has to be mixed with a 1/2 cup of water, and consumed immediately. When I first took the powder out of the package, it had a bad smell. I wasn't sure I could swallow it, but in water, it had an orange flavor and was no problem. This ONE time dosage cost $84! Given that, all I can say is it better work. 

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