Saturday, April 6, 2024Tonight's picture was taken in April of 2007. That day we were headed to celebrate Mattie's 5th birthday at the National Zoo. When I am telling you the weather was horrible, I am not kidding. It was pouring ALL day. I thought the party was going to be a total disaster. The Zoo's policy was events were rain or shine. They had an indoor space for cake and gatherings, but then we all went for a walk around the Zoo with a guide. I advised parents to dress their children for rain with boots and umbrellas. I thought all the animals would be hiding and that the tour was going to be a total flop!! Turns out the kids thought it was a fun adventure, the Zoo wasn't crowded because of the rain, and the animals were out frolicking in the water. It was a success and Mattie had a wonderful time. That day taught me that something negative, can turn out to be a positive.
Quote of the day: There’s such beauty in the hard honesty of that, in accepting and giving love while always aware that it comes with an unbearable price. ~ Dean Koontz
My mom showed me this message she saw on Facebook today. Naturally it resonated with me. Though I am not writing in this public forum about my daily life, I assure you it is absolutely hellish since Peter left. The pain that I endure each day, perhaps can be someone else's guide one day, but right now, I am too devastated and can only manage on a day by day basis.
Truthfully I panicked. I did not know what to do or who to call. I text messaged our plumber. YES, he and I get along that well! He helped me determine whether it was a house or sprinkler problem. He directed me to shut off the water to the house. He taught me how to do that the last time he was over. So I did that, then he said go upstairs and turn the sink on and then turn the sink on in the basement. This helps to drain out the water from the system. While the sinks were running, he had me go outside. The water was still coming out of the ground at a clip! So we determined that it wasn't a house issue, but a sprinkler issue. Our landscaper came on Tuesday and turned on the sprinklers for the season. Yet he did not spot this issue on Tuesday. Which means that while the lawn was mowed on Friday, the machine must have hit a sprinkler head. My plumber advised me to shut off the sprinkler valve, because I would have a high water bill if I continued to let this go on throughout the weekend. LOVELY... I had to first find the shut off valve.
I couldn't find a soul to help me. Many companies are closed on Saturday and don't answer their phones! So necessity is indeed the mother of invention.
Later today my mom wanted to go out for a snack. I wanted frozen yogurt and she wanted to go back to Starbuck's because she wanted hot tea. Truthfully I had a mini meltdown. As everything is always about her! Then she threatened me that she would stay home. I said that was her decision, but Daddy and I were going out. My mom has a huge fear of missing out, so I knew she wouldn't stay home alone. Sure enough she got her coat on and came with us. My mom admitted in the car that she truly can't handle the stress of our daily life. I absolutely understand, as I am living a soap opera (which isn't clear to my readers, because I am not writing the details of my existence here), and this is hard to take for an 88 year old. It is also hard for a parent to see their child suffering so traumatically. Therefore, I try to be compassionate, because I know her acting out and constant laments are her way of trying to manage stress, anxiety, and fear over what is happening to my life.
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