Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2006. Mattie was four years old! As you can see, Mattie LOVED cardboard boxes. He would transform them into all sorts of things, and this love continued into the hospital when he was faced with a cancer diagnosis. His whole medial treatment team knew to.... SAVE BOXES FOR MATTIE BROWN!
Quote of the day: Love is a promise; love is a souvenir, once given, never forgotten, never let it disappear. ~ John Lennon
My mom continues to be sick. She isn't getting worse, but she is absolutely exhausted, congested, but has lost the sore throat, and the cough is improving. So I suppose that is progress. After I dropped my dad off at his memory care center today, I finally got to the grocery store. Ironically I have always been the kind of person who wants to pick out my own food that I am purchasing. I did this even during COVID. As my mom says about me.... I have a love affair with food! I can't help it, I like to eat and good food brings me as close to happiness as I can get!
While in the car driving to the grocery store, the radio commentator was talking about weekend plans. He was asking people to call in to share their plans. He discussed all sorts of things from getting together with friends, hearing a concert, or traveling. All I could think of is... this is NOT me! My weekend doesn't look much different from my weekdays, except weekends are far worse. The lack of structure of not having access to my dad's memory care center, or being able to go out and do normal things, is wearing. Each and every day, my routine is pretty much the same, filled with tasks, meeting demands, needs, and paying bills. I highly doubt the radio personality would want to hear about my weekend, or the weekend of any other caregiver or person coping with an illness for that matter.
Honestly when I look at my life in totality, it is overwhelming, and it could take my breath away. Which is why I am good at blocking things out, and compartmentalizing issues. If I couldn't, I wouldn't function and neither would my household.
Three things I am grateful for:
- The smell of freshly cut grass. This morning I opened the door and got a wonderful aroma wafting through!
- Being healthy! After three MRIs in two weeks, I am very cognizant that my life could have changed after either one of them!
- I received this beautiful photo from my cousin in Missouri. Look at this glorious Chihuly glass structure. To me it screamed out Mattie Miracle's sunshine!
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