Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2004. Mattie was two years old and I snapped this photo because I thought this was hysterical! Mattie put on Mr. Potato Head's glasses! Upside down of course! When I was a child, I loved playing with Mr. Potato Head. Particularly creating many different combinations! When I bought Mr. Potato Head for Mattie, I figured he would enjoy it like I did! He didn't! But instead, he took the props and used them in his own way. Which was very indicative of Mattie, he marched to the beat to his own drum.
Quote of the day: Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you’d been before the fall. ~ Jodi Picoult
It was a LONG day at home! Originally I had plans to go grocery shopping while my dad's physical therapist was over. Forget it! My mom is still quite sick, and I needed to manage her needs all day. I knew she couldn't monitor my dad's bathroom needs, while I was out, so therefore I never left the house. Of course, I am glad I did not leave, because mid-therapy session, my dad had to rush to the bathroom. Both the therapist and my mom can't really manage his toileting issues.
After the therapist left, I tried to get both of my parents to rest. My dad was worn out from his session, so he was sleeping within minutes, but my mom couldn't get comfortable. I have been catering to her all day. Meanwhile in the back of my mind was.... when will I get my breast MRI results??? As the day progressed on, I got more and more anxious! I took two MRIs on May 22, and the hospital gave me the results hours later. So naturally you can imagine where my mind went today. I got so worked up over this, that I went outside to pull weeds and garden. I served no purpose sitting around and thinking. If God for bid something was found on the MRI, I frankly do not know how I would have coped or managed. My whole household relies on me, therefore, I can't avoid to be sick in any fashion.
Thankfully at around 5:30pm, I saw those magical words to any patient.... benign findings. Since Mattie's cancer diagnosis, I know full well that life can change with ONE scan! That is all it takes and I know the ramifications of cancer on the patient and the family. However, I until a year ago, now I face everything ALONE. It is a daunting existence, with so much responsibility on my shoulders. But God was with me today and he understood, VICKI CAN'T HANDLE ONE MORE THING.
The three things I am grateful for:
- Benign findings!!!!
- Virginia Hospital Center! They are an amazing hospital facility.
- Having the same radiologist evaluate all my breast imaging.
No comments:
Post a Comment