A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



July 26, 2024

Friday, July 26, 2024

Friday, July 26, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2009. Mattie's child life specialist bought me a birthday cake, so that Mattie could give it to me. It was my last birthday with Mattie. Mattie is missed each and every day and if he were alive now, I can only imagine how he would feel about what is going on in my life. Mattie was a fierce protector of me, even as a child, so who knows what he would be like now at age 22?






Quote of the day: If love is like driving a car, then I must be the worst driver in the world. I missed all the signs and ended up lost. ~ Brian MacLearn


I took my mom for her six month doctor follow up. While at the appointment, I mentioned to the doctor issues I am noticing in my dad. My dad is very fatigued, which isn't noteworthy per se, but he also has labored breathing, even while at rest. I am noticing a bulge in his side, by his rib cage, and I assumed it was a hernia. The doctor is saying, no! Any case, he wants to see my dad and do blood work and scans. NOT what I wanted to hear. Doing any of these things with my dad is cumbersome and stressful. 

After this appointment, I went to the Mattie Miracle mailbox. Our box was filled with all sorts of things, but one item was a happy birthday card from my former neighbors in Washington, DC. This family and I knew each other for over twenty years, and I am very fond of them. I am deeply touched that they remembered me, and want to connect. It is hard to believe I only left the city three years ago, and yet so much devastation has happened in such a short period of time. 

Tomorrow I am meeting up with friends to celebrate my birthday. I haven't left my parents alone since they moved in, and in order to make this happen, I am preparing all sorts of things in order for them to manage while I am gone. It is hard to describe, but any change in routine for me is very difficult, and socializing is equally difficult. I am not myself and when I feel this way, I prefer to retreat from the world. 

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