Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

October 27, 2024

Sunday, October 27, 2024

Sunday, October 27, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2007. Mattie was five years old. We carved a pumpkin together, put a candle inside of it, and Mattie was posing with his creation. Mattie loved everything pumpkin, and as a result, pumpkins became a big deal to me. This year, I was in no mood to decorate, but in honor of Mattie, I did get a big pumpkin and it sits on our front door step. 


Quote of the day: A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It’s just his way of letting you realize he saved you from the wrong one. ~ Anonymous


I came across this quote tonight and all I can say is REALLY?? I love when people generate platitudes to help ease or explain the unexplainable. What I do know is trite or dismissive statements, when I am distraught further add to my pain. But to tie heartbreak to God is a new one for me. I do not link heartache, blessings, and God together. 

It was another winner of a day. I am filled with anxiety and can feel panic taking over. When this happens, I know I have to MOVE. I trimmed more bushes, then cleaned windows, and began scrubbing my fieldstone walkways. They are covered in algae and muck. I can see it is going to be a long process to get this clean and because of the expansive nature of our walkways, I most likely will need to turn to a professional because these stones need to be cleaned and sealed. 

In between this chore, I also did a clean up from the construction site I live next door to, as there were food containers, paper towels, and trash all within our bushes. If you haven't put two and two together, I am a very type A person and when it comes to cleanliness, my tolerance is low for trash, debris, and mess. 

I would say that this weekend I hit a low. Each day is filled with the same nightmare of tasks and heartache, with no end in sight. I just never thought that I would ever be faced with getting divorced and certainly not after a 35 year long relationship. Nothing makes sense to me any longer. 

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Don't give Peter the power to rule your thoughts. He doesn't deserve you. He has shown you who he is, so you need to believe him and not put him up on a pedestal. You are wonderful and strong. You thrived without Peter before you met him, and you will continue to thrive without him!

Victoria Sardi-Brown said...

Thank you for your vote of confidence. I may get there, but I am no where near this now, because I know the real man behind the facade.