A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



October 19, 2023

Thursday, October 19, 2023

Thursday, October 19, 2023

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2003. Mattie was a year and a half old and this was his first experience at a fall festival. This festival had a petting zoo, and as you can see, Mattie got an up close and personal interaction with this sheep. To me this will always be a very precious and inquisitive photo, as both Mattie and the sheep looked like they were studying each other. 


Quote of the day: There are three needs of the griever: To find the words for the loss, to say the words aloud and to know that the words have been heard.Victoria Alexander


After getting my dad up, showered, dressed, and had breakfast, I then got my dad settled in his chair and then drove to the hospital for a blood test. Typically parking is a challenge and I was preparing for a morning of stress. It turns out that parking was simple, the phlebotomist was fantastic, and I was in and out in less than 30 minutes. Even the commute back and forth to the hospital was easy. I figured this was a good sign for the rest of my day. 

Unfortunately my day truly unraveled out of control so much so that by this evening, I just couldn't sit still. Fortunately it was a lovely weather day, so I did lap after lap in the backyard. Of course I wasn't alone, my buddy, Sunny, was sitting down, watching and always in his own way lent support. 

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