Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. This was a typical day inside Mattie's 2x4 of a hospital room. We were running a science experiment on Mattie's hospital table! Mattie loved hands on learning and one thing was for certain, we always filled Mattie's room with all kinds of distractions in order to make the long and arduous days more bearable. Given all that Mattie was enduring, look how engaged he was..... look at that smile! He as an amazing fellow.
Quote of the day: Trust yourself. Trust your story. All you can do is tell it true. ~ Holly Ringland
There are some days when I do not know if I am coming or going. I did my usual tasks and chores today and thought.... maybe today will be a less stressful day! FORGET IT! When I got home, there was a message on our answering machine. As an aside.... yes I still have the antiquated answering machine on our home phone. Some traditions never die.
The message was financial related. Understand that I have lived my entire adult life without having to balance a checkbook. I have been conditioned all my life to think that I can't do this.... that Vicki isn't good with numbers. Everyone did me a massive disservice. Because I am actually better with numbers and understanding the complexities of finances than people think. That said, all of this is VERY stressful!
Just when I think I can stabilize a highly unstable situation, something unexpected pops up. Today's issue practically sent me right over the deep end, and when this happens, I see no way out. All I know is if the rest of my life looks this grim and stressful, I really do not see the point. I have no idea how I managed dinner or anything else for that matter tonight. What I do know is I am absolutely sickened and disheartened that I face all these crises alone.
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