A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



March 28, 2026

Saturday, March 28, 2026

Saturday, March 28, 2026

Tonight's picture was taken in March of 2009. Mattie was admitted to the hospital for his next round of chemotherapy. If you look closely, you can see that the chemotherapy was red in color (Doxorubicin). With each admission, we decorated Mattie's IV pole with 1,000 praying origami cranes. These cranes now hang in my office, but we had great hope that the chemotherapy would work and that it would give Mattie more time with us. What I love about this photo was Mattie's ability to watch a movie and disengage from the infusion process!


Quote of the day: Cooking and baking is both physical and mental therapy. Mary Berry


I got it in my head this week that I wanted to bake Easter themed cookies. As I was searching for recipes, I came across Italian Easter Cookies. Here's the irony of this, when I was a little girl, my grandmother baked cookies similar to this, in the sense that they had the same texture and consistency. My grandmother did not frost her cookies, but in my opinion, frosting always makes me smile. It is more labor intensive to frost cookies, but it's definitely more festive!
The kitchen island was filled with cookies and the whole house smelled like a bakery. Though I have never found baking therapeutic, not like cooking, I did find focusing on this today took my mind off of my usual reflections, worries, and issues. 


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