Sunday, June 12, 2011

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2008. We took Mattie to a local mill. That particular weekend the park's service were showing attendees how to tap sugar maple trees to get syrup. We all found the whole process fascinating and everyone got to taste the syrup. It was a cold but memorable day!


Quote of the day: It is the peculiar nature of the world to go on spinning no matter what sort of heartbreak is happening. ~ Sue Monk Kidd

Peter began his day on Roosevelt Island. Peter is a very early riser, he is up before 6am, even on the weekends. In that respect we are polar opposites, since I have never been a morning person. Fortunately he is an early riser because in the heat of the summer, he is still able to walk on Roosevelt Island. This morning, he captured a photo of this beautiful oriole! I love the sound that orioles make and their beautiful red wings!

Along Peter's journey on the Island, he came across this huge beetle. To me this was a sign from Mattie. Mattie would have absolutely loved this creature. Peter actually picked this beetle up and moved him to safer terrain so it wouldn't get stepped on by other walkers!

Peter also spotted a Great Blue Heron as well. There is one particular tree where we know Herons like to perch, and today apparently the perch was occupied!

Peter and I went out to lunch together and we had a chance to chat about the various feelings that have been bothering me lately. As always he was very understanding and got what I was saying right away. However, I have found that with Mattie's death I find that I no longer fit in anywhere or with anyone. All my friends have children and now of course I don't. So what held us together and what we communicated about has naturally changed. So in essence losing Mattie has affected my identity on so many levels. I lost my identity of being a mom, and I lost the social networks that come with having a child. Some days I deal with that better than others, and some weeks, the reality hits me much harder.

This week I will be visiting Ann's mom, Mary each day. When Ann goes out of town, I try to provide Mary with company and emotional support. Mary and I chatted for three hours and I helped her with dinner. We haven't had an opportunity to see each other for a while, since I was quite busy with the Foundation's Walk. So this gives us an opportunity to spend time together again.

This evening Peter took pictures of the beautiful clouds in the sky. This particular picture caught my attention and I am sharing it with you tonight. It had rained earlier and seeing the sun come out and shine through the clouds seemed like a miraculous sight.