A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



August 4, 2021

Wednesday, August 4, 2021

Wednesday, August 4, 2021

Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2002. Mattie was four months old and was beginning to eat rice cereal. It was actually something Mattie loved! However, Mattie hated his high chair. So most times I fed him in his car seat or on the couch. He eventually graduated to the high chair, but it wasn't his favorite spot. Most likely because he felt constrained. 


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 35,314,746
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 614,769


It is almost 7pm, and I have been running around all day. Either doing chores, or meeting with contractors. As of today, our wood floors are now done. We can't put rugs or furniture on them for two weeks. The crew returns on Monday to beginning sanding and staining our staircase. I so wish this was all done at one time, but because we were trying to accommodate the painters who were using the stairs, we delayed the process. Therefore, the wood dust and horrid oil sealant smell will remain in our house for the next several weeks. It smells so toxic, it is hard to be in there for long.

Of course, the sanding machine caused divots in the paint. So our lead painter is coming back in about a week to correct these areas. We are making progress, but it isn't fast enough in my book. It is very difficult to focus on our home in DC (which needs to be organized, things need to be donated, and of course I still have to pack up things) when I am managing what is going on at the house daily. I am sick of the 30 minute drive back and forth each day too! I feel chronically tired, migraines daily, and no in the best of moods. 

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