Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

March 3, 2023

Friday, March 3, 2023

Friday, March 3, 2023

Tonight's picture was taken in March of 2009. I know this photo had to be taken on a Friday, because on Fridays the university chemistry club visited the pediatric units and did hands on experiments with the kids. Mattie absolutely loved this club and no matter how badly he was feeling, he always wanted to participate in their antics. Sometimes the club even came into Mattie's two by four of a hospital room. 

Given that we now live in the post COVID era, where masking is commonplace, this photo may not strike you as being odd. But think about our world prior to COVID. Most of us never wore a mask on a daily and hourly basis. But for children with cancer, this is very common place. They must wear masks when their white blood cell counts are so slow, making them susceptible to all sorts of viruses and infections. 


Quote of the day: Life is like a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving. ~ Albert Einstein


Last night my mom was complaining so much about her cold symptoms while we were having dinner, that literally mid-bite, I asked Peter to hand me my cell phone. My mom has been lamenting about not being in California and if she was in California, her doctor would have started her on antibiotics already. I couldn't handle it anymore, and I decided to contact her pulmonologist. Since it was after hours, I had to leave a message and wait for the on-call physician to get back to me!

I resorted to her pulmonologist because I know my parent's internist would be no help. As many of my faithful readers know, I call this doctor, dopey. Dopey lives up to his reputation. I can appreciate why he is judicious about prescribing antibiotics. But in my parents case, they have been fighting this upper respiratory cold for a week and NOT getting better. In addition, with their age and underlying health conditions I would think this physician would take notice. Or at least think twice about the benefits of prescribing antibiotics. 

I feel like my parents physician has left me to do everything this week, without guidance and help. In any case, it did not take any convincing of the pulmonologist last night. She quickly prescribed a z-pack and Peter went out to CVS to retrieve it. Thankfully our pharmacy in Arlington (where we used to go when we lived in the city) is open 24 hours a day. It is practically the only one in our region open all night. Any case, they filled the script in record time and within an hour, I started my mom on the medication. 

Yesterday, I thought my dad's condition was stabilized. But as soon as he heard that my mom was prescribed antibiotics, his symptoms somehow magically reappeared. His cough is back with a vengeance and he is coughing up yellow stuff. Needless to say, I wrote to his doctor last night requesting a z-pack for him. I told him that my mom is already on one, and we have given it a week and there is still no improvement. 

This morning, I checked my dad's portal. There was NO message from the doctor. So at 9am, I called the office. Turns out dopey is having dental surgery today and is away from the office. His physician's assistant, just had a hip replacement surgery, so she is out too. Needless to say, I spoke to the manager of the office and he could tell I was not a happy camper. Dopey needs to have a system in place if he is going to be out of the office! Otherwise, I guess his patients can only get sick on days he comes to work! The office manager, put me on hold, and somehow got a hold of the doctor before his surgery. End result, my dad is now on antibiotics too. 

I have played nurse maid, on top of my usual caregiver role, for a week and I am tired. I think I am so stressed out that I am not sleeping at night. I have had bouts of insomnia before in my life, and I would say this entire week it takes me hours to get to sleep. Fortunately once I get to sleep, I stay asleep, but given that I have to get up so early, not falling asleep until 2 or 3am is disconcerting.  

Meanwhile, if you ask my dad why he did not go to his memory care program this week, his answer will be.... 'I don't know!' Then he will say, "because I have COVID." I have reminded him that he doesn't have COVID and tested negative. But things just don't compute. I have gone in circles with him today about the fact that he has a cold and a bad cough. Therefore, he can't go into the center when so sick. I even wrote the word, SICK, in his daily journal, in red ink. Since Sunday, I have counted each sick day in his journal, but no matter what I do, he retains nothing, has no interest in anything, and there are times I think I could get a better response if I was talking to the wall. 

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