A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



September 22, 2025

Monday, September 22, 2025

Monday, September 22, 2025

Tonight's picture was taken in September of 2003. Mattie was a year and half old, and by that point he was beginning to walk independently. Nonetheless, he loved my plant stand. Ironically so did Patches, the cat! If this plant stand could talk, it holds a lot of stories! It witnessed so much and I remember purchasing it soon after we moved from Boston to Washington, DC. In this particular case, Mattie loved the stand because it helped him brace himself as he walked by the window to check out the flowers, birds, as well as what was going on outside. Mattie was Mr. Curiosity, and I absolutely LOVED taking in the world through his eyes. 



Quote of the day: And can it be that in a world so full and busy the loss of one creature makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up! ~ Charles Dickens


This morning after dropping my dad off at his memory care center, I came home thinking I would spend some time in the garden cutting back my roses. Forget it! The Foundation's book keeper sent me an email, asking me to migrate data from our old accounting software account to a new one! I was the one who had to do it as I am the primary account holder. I certainly understood what she was asking me to do but I had absolutely NO IDEA how to manage this technology and figure out this migration. She sent me a tutorial, but forget it.... I still couldn't get the process to work. 

So like with everything else, I looked for the "CHAT" link on the website! I no longer waste any time, or get frustrated. I now just immediately reach out for help. I was on chat for 90 minutes with a lovely woman. She had this special technology which enabled her to see my computer screen. It was fascinating, as she put her cursor over things and guided me step by step on how to manage this migration. Fortunately I was working with her, because it wasn't a simple migration. So Cathrine was today's angel!

At around 4pm, after I got both of my parents settled and watching TV, I went outside. I spent about 90 minutes cutting back this rose garden. I should have taken a before photo, because the roses were higher than the fountain, which I use as a bird bath. 

Tonight at dinner, my dad wanted to talk about Morse Code. As this was something he discussed at his memory care center today. So while eating I looked up facts about the code and we had a stimulating discussion. However, after dinner, my dad mentioned to my mom that they have dentist appointments on Wednesday at 10am. That sent her for a tailspin. Not the appointment but the time. In order for me to get them to this appointment in the city, it requires me to leave the house at 9am. It isn't a user friendly location either, because I have to park a half a block away in a garage and then use a wheelchair with my dad, and hold onto my mom at the same time. Any case my mom started screaming at me about how I could be so foolish to select a 10am appointment. Sometimes I have no choice on timing, as I am juggling two hygienist appointments at the same time, one for my mom and one for my dad. Tonight I was in no mood and I literally said to my mom...... okay you don't like what I did, but what have you done? Meaning, I at least worked hard to get appointments, what role did you take in this process? Also note that two years ago, the hygienist asked me to take over the brushing of my dad's teeth. So this was added to my morning routine with him, where I physically take an electric toothbrush to his mouth and clean his teeth by hand. Since I started caring for his oral hygiene his appointments have gone more smoothly. 

Needless to say, I have already emailed Annie, my hygienist, who works with my mom and asked her if she could help me reschedule the appointments. I do the best I can each day managing schedules, appointments, and addressing their every need. I am on the go from the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to sleep at night, with no breaks in between.

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