A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



October 27, 2025

Monday, October 27, 2025

Monday, October 27, 2025

Tonight's picture was taken on Halloween of 2006. Mattie was four years old and that year he finally got to wear his calico cat costume that we created together in 2005 (In 2005, Mattie was hospitalized with sepsis from an ear infection and was unable to wear the costume.). Mattie was the cutest cat and had a wonderful time dressed up in his costume at preschool and then of course going trick or treating with friends. 


Quote of the day: Unhappiness is caused when we cannot let go of our memories.Jed Rubenfeld


Just when I think my days can't get worse, they do! This morning, my mom had her physical therapy session at home. Getting her downstairs in time for this appointment isn't easy, and of course while herding her, I am also balancing my dad's morning routine. When her therapist arrived, I got my dad to the car and to his memory care center. I then drove to a board member's house, so she could sign a Foundation document that I had to get in the mail this week. So that was 40 minutes of driving. I then hurried back home, because Paul, my HVAC person, was coming over to address the lack of heat on the first floor. It has been very cold inside, so much so that my nose and hands have been frozen while at home. Needless to say this temperature is NOT good for my parents. 

Paul was with us for two hours! Thankfully this wasn't a furnace issue, but a gas pressure issue, which impacted how much forced air was going through to the vents. Prior to Paul adjusting it today, it was set very low. So low that it made no measurable difference inside the house. I wasn't sure how this was possible, but then Paul reminded me that he only started working with me in April of 2025. Paul is kind, thorough, competent, and YES I have his cell phone number. I literally text messaged him on Saturday and he worked with his company to get me on the schedule today, which I am grateful for!

Once Paul was gone, my mom wanted to go out. The time I could spend on catching up on things around the house, never happens, because I am always juggling one of my parent's needs or issues. Later in the day, after getting my parents settled, I started doing things around the house. I started at 4:30pm, and did not stop until 7:30pm. The problem with that is at 7:30pm, I had two very hungry parents, so I scrambled to make dinner. But I was determined this afternoon to cut back our big hydrangea bush and then try to figure out how to get our water sensors in the house working. We have a sensor in three locations (under the kitchen sink, under the washing machine, and under the water heater), and the sensors are designed to warn me if anything is leaking and could cause a flood. For two years now these sensors have not been working. My plumber tried to re-install them for me, but again, they weren't working. If I paid for something, I expect it to work! 

I was determined to get these sensors working! Honestly they connect to wi-fi but they do not connect easily! You should have seen me holding the sensors up to the router in our house and waiting minutes for them to connect. Out of the three sensors, I got two up and operational, after an hour of labor. Tomorrow, I will address #3! What I have learned through this painful life lesson is that I have to be fully operational on my own. But I live with constant and chronic stress.

While I was cleaning the dinner dishes, my mom apparently had grabbed my phone, thinking it was hers. I have no idea how she accomplished this within minutes, but she shut down every opened and saved search page I had! Some of these pages I had open were of sentimental value. I am very tired and worn out, and literally this was the last straw tonight! My mom refuses to understand that she has her own issues, but once again I learned another lesson...... my phone can not be in her reach, as my phone truly manages my life and everything in this house!

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