A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



February 8, 2013

Friday, February 8, 2013

Friday, February 8, 2013

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. Mattie was sitting in his hospital bed and in usual Mattie style was VERY busy. He had a glue gun in one hand, which by the way, he was skilled at using since preschool, and check out the rubber ROACH sitting on his foot. Despite Mattie's down and very sick days, he always had a sense of humor. He loved creeping me out and ALL his nurses. Needless to say Mattie never traveled to the hospital without his rubber bugs, spiders, snakes, or anything else that could produce a howl or two!




Quote of the day: Follow your heart. It will get you to where you need to be. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's easy, the places that your heart takes you. But continue to follow it. ~ Erykah Badu


I had a full day today which started with my monthly professional counseling licensure board meeting. At the meeting, I presided over an ethical violation hearing and though I can not discuss the nature of this case, I can say it was disturbing. So much so that after it was over, I just had to be out and among people, and I couldn't return home right away. As my friend Karen said tonight, I sometimes have the pleasure of seeing the worst in people. I think her assessment is so right! Unlike what tonight's quote implies, sometimes people DO NOT follow their hearts, or let me restate this...... that their hearts have been frozen by selfishness, self absorption, and the desire for self gratification. When this happens only negativity, harm to others, and a profound disconnection from meaningful relationships results. As I left the hearing today, I found that I was shaking my head back and forth in disbelief. I wasn't consciously doing this, it was simply more a reaction to what I had absorbed.

Peter and I are spending the weekend on finalizing think tank folders, paperwork, and giving some thought to some of the verbal messages we wish to share at the event. I also wanted to mention that recently Peter and I have received several messages from first time blog readers and I very much appreciate the lovely feedback, comments, and your perspective of what the blog means to you!
 

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I've spent many hours over the last few days reading your blog and foundation newsletters. I'm blown away by your work and passion, and must let you know that your work is inspirational and essential. Not many people know the desperation and helplessness a parent feels when their child is sick. Thank you, thank you for your work and dedication.