A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



May 30, 2018

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2006. Mattie was four years old and that day he went with Peter to buy his first bicycle. It was a big day!!! They assembled it together and when I returned home, I found Mattie riding his bike with training wheels. 




Quote of the day: Was it always to be like this? she wondered. A moment of joy followed by a new sorrow? ~ Soheir Khashoggi


I found tonight's quote while searching for words that would capture bittersweet moments. In so many ways, as I watch my friends acknowledge and celebrate milestones with their children, for me these moments are all bittersweet. I can be happy for my friends and sad for myself at the same time. Which is why there really are no purely happy moments in my life anymore.  Yet how do you try to describe this conflict to someone, without making them feel badly or guilty?! The answer I have found, is.... no way exists. Someone in the end is going to get hurt hearing about this reality. 



I will return to Walk photos tomorrow, but tonight, I am highlighting the flower arrangements I created today. They aren't for me, but for my friend, whose son is graduating from high school this weekend. She has family and friends coming into town starting tomorrow, so today was the perfect day to do arrangements, without people under toe. 

First stop was to buy flowers! That for me takes time. I must have spent close to an hour in the store figuring out what flowers went with each other. 
Get the drift....I knew I had several arrangements to make, so it requires a lot of flowers. But here is the funny part about all of this. What one flower arrangement would cost from a florist, I can make about five for the same cost. 
So here is the first cutie! Lilies and daisies. Remember it is for a boy.... so I constrained myself from buying roses and anything pink. 
The angle of this photo didn't come out great, but the lilies and daisies look lovely together! They will serve as a centerpiece on a buffet table. 
My favorites.... sunflowers. I chose them to greet guests as they enter the party!
This is the centerpiece I made for the dining room buffet table. This one came out great. It has a country feel to it with hydrangeas and alstroemeria. 
Yes in my opinion even the powder room needs flowers. To me Gerber daisies scream..... HAPPY!

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