A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



October 7, 2025

Tuesday, October 7, 2025

Tuesday, October 7, 2025 -- Mattie died 815 weeks ago today.

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2006. Mattie was four and half years old and like most Fall weekends, we went to a local festival. We saw this gigantic pumpkin and posed for a photo with it! I always loved this photo and it remains framed in my office today! Life looked so different for us back then and I would never have guessed that two years later Mattie would have been diagnosed with cancer!


Quote of the day: It is strange how close the past is, even when you imagine it to be so far away. Strange how it can just jump out of a sentence and hit you. Strange how every object or word can house a ghost. ~ Matt Haig


It was another day in paradise. Today, it was like I had a bee in my bonnet! I was determined to get this furnace working! I started my calls early with the company who installed the furnace yesterday. Besides the huge expense, out of principle, if you install something in my home, it should WORK! I called this company several times today because they wanted to send out the same install team I had yesterday! No offense, they were lovely, but this issue was NOT an install issue. It was an electrical/technology based problem! How did I know? I knew because I had this same problem in 2024! In fact, 2024 was such a bad year, that we went the entire winter on the second floor without HEAT! Trust me, it was painful. We suffered through this because no one seemed to be able to solve the problem. Until I got introduced to Jonathan. Jonathan figured out the problem and therefore I wanted Jonathan to come back today! I fought hard to get an experienced person here. 

At 1pm, my doorbell rang. It was not Jonathan. Instead, I was introduced to Andrew. At first I was upset, but it turns out Andrew is like ten stages higher than Jonathan. Andrew worked for two hours trying to diagnosis the electrical issue. He is ordering three new parts, which he will install next week FREE of charge! Here's the funny part! Yesterday the install team, installed a new thermostat! Turns out this new thermostat won't work, and is helping to contribute to the electrical issue! Instead, I need the model of the thermostat they dismantled yesterday! Mind you I threw it out, and the garbage was collected today! After all, I figured I did not need it. Thankfully the company is giving me a brand new one and not charging me. Seriously this furnace issue may send me right over the edge as upstairs has reached temperatures of 82 degrees this week! How I managed to sleep in that heat is beyond me. 

The furnace was one issue I addressed today. I also had an in-home nurse over to evaluate my mom, as she is starting physical therapy this week. The nurse was over at the same time I was juggling Andrew of course. But adding to my long list of what I am learning to do, I also spoke to a financial advisor today. My focus is on the Foundation, keeping it financially viable, growing, and ultimately keeping Mattie's legacy going for as long as I am alive. Talking finances and investments is NOT second nature to me, but it has been two long years of moving way past my comfort zone. 

Before Andrew left today, he said to me.... "your house is easy on the eyes both inside and outside!" I truly had to think about this for a minute! As easy on the eyes is an older expression! But I knew exactly what he meant.... he was telling me that he thought how I have decorated the house and how I care for the outside is beautiful. Needless to say, his comment meant a great deal to me, because I work around the clock to keep this house looking the way it does.

Given that it was October and close to 80 degrees today, I made sure I got outside in the backyard! I trimmed more of my roses, and that hour outside felt magical. 

Tomorrow, I am headed back to the bank. I have more meetings there, but I am not going empty handed. I am so so grateful to the banker helping me that I baked her lemon drop cookies tonight and put together a bouquet of hydrangeas from my garden for her. Sure she is doing her job, but it is how she is doing it! With great compassion, concern for my financial well-being, and spends the time educating me so that I can make better decisions. 

The banker won't know the "Mattie" significance of sunflowers, but I certainly do!!! I am glad to have her as a resource! Yes I am learning the art of being self reliant, but I also know the importance of having trusted community resources to turn to for guidance, insights, and help. 


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