Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. I snapped a photo of Mattie outside his hospital room door. It was not unusual for me to decorate Mattie's room while he was hospitalized. In fact, I traveled with a bin of decorations, so that we displayed different creations at every admission. Since we practically lived in the hospital, these colorful things brightened up the hospital space. Mattie painted these wonderful creations, so naturally I posted them to the door that day. As Mattie's cancer treatment wore on, his artistic creations enabled his care team to have something to converse with him about, before jumping into a medical exam. So though these were visually appealing they also served a psychosocial purpose!
Quote of the day: We do not realize the extent of the energy we are losing until we find where it is seeping from. ~ Elliot Page
As of today, I have been feeling unwell for a good three weeks. I have interacted with a doctor, a physician assistant, and was prescribed antibiotics and over the counter medications. This morning, I felt like I was struggling. I am very tired, and need to rest to recuperate. But in my house, rest is not possible, because I run the schedule and everything within the house. My dad had a physical therapy session today and I had to get it together. In fact, next week, I have early mornings each day because there is one doctor appointment after the other and the stress of herding my parents out of the house in the morning is sickening.
So at some point, I had a meltdown today and contacted my doctor's office. No one can see me tomorrow, so I am seeing my doctor on Monday instead. Mind you I have a thirty minute window for Monday's appointment because after that, I have to take my mom to her bone density appointment. So my mom will be in tow with me for my own appointment. Why? Because my mom is not capable to find her way to her doctor's office, even though it is in the same building as my appointment. Therefore, she has to remain with me.
It was rainy and depressing day today, but despite the weather and how I was feeling, I took my parents out for lunch. Just getting each one of them in the car and inside the restaurant is a show. I now can't manage them together, so I manage one by one which means a ton of running back and forth to the car for me. Seriously every place we go..... people know me! You would be amazed at what people observe and absorb! The joke at today's restaurant is..... do I have wings? They always turn me around to look on my back for angel wings, and every time, I laugh! All I can hope is that the angels are watching out for me, because I am tired of this sinus infection, drowning in fluid, head pressure and now a foul smokey smell in my nasal passages. Managing this on top of caregiving and everything else is wearing.
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