A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



February 26, 2021

Friday, February 26, 2021

Friday, February 26, 2021

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2008. Five months before Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. That day we took Mattie to Roosevelt Island, and as you can see he was feeding the ducks. Mattie loved feeding the ducks, but I think perhaps all children like this activity. Needless to say, I always had a ziploc full of bread in tow for moments like this! 


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 28,470,393
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 509,983


Last evening I developed an ocular migraine. Which is the tell tale sign to me that a full blown migraine is coming! An ocular migraine is scary because it feels like your vision is changing. You begin to see temporary flashes of stars and zig-zag lines and intense pain, which may be pulsating or throbbing, in one or both sides of the head. When this first happened to me years ago, I honestly thought something was seriously wrong with me! However, I have learned from my doctor that this "aura" happens in 20% of migraine sufferers. Lucky me! The symptoms last for a good thirty minutes and I have learned to just be patient and wait for the zig zagging lines to go away. But it is upsetting as you can't read, drive, or focus on anything until it goes away. 

So the aura is gone, and I am left with the migraine headache. Which perhaps contributes to my frustration. For the past two days, I have been trying to write a description of the research project Mattie Miracle is envisioning. It is great that it is in my head, but now trying to articulate it on paper to share with potential sponsors is proving difficult! In fact, I am so tongue tied, that I walked away from the document for the day. I am hoping for a new lens tomorrow.  

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