A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



July 1, 2026

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2009. Mattie was at his second party that year, to celebrate his 7th birthday. My friend Christine hosted an amazing and memorable party for Mattie. The party  had a reptiles alive show, and as you can see Mattie was having an up close and personal visit with a snake. I, on the other hand, was as far away as possible from this snake. I hate snakes, I don't even like garter snakes. Snakes freak me out, but as you can see Mattie was intrigued! I will never forget this moment in time, as at that point, we thought Mattie was stable enough to return to school in the Fall. Which is ironic, because two months later, Mattie's cancer had metastasized throughout his body.  


Quote of the day: Losing a mate to death is devastating but it's not a personal attack like divorce. When somebody you love stops loving you and walks away, it's an insult beyond comparison. ~  Sue Merrell,


Every summer my friend Ann's cousin visits her from Boston. In the past, I had the freedom and flexibility to meet up with them and take JP to lunch. But since I moved to this house and started caregiving, my life has taken one turn after the other for the worse. 

Since I can't meet up with them, they came over to the house today and we swam and had lunch together. This was possible because my dad was at his memory care center. This gathering may not sound like a big deal, but for me it is! I rarely do anything social now, as I just can't handle it physically or emotionally. 
I loved seeing JP in one of our Mattie Miracle Walk t-shirts from 2012! I work so hard maintaining this pool, that it was lovely to be to go into it today. Mind you it was close to 100 degrees, so the coolness of the pool truly made this day manageable outside. But I would have to say that there is something therapeutic about being in water and I wish my other half were still here. Because when you are inundated with caregiving 24/7, it would be lovely to have a spouse to look after me, to have my best interest at heart, and to force me to stop doing tasks, and just be. 







Me and JP! JP wanted to pick a flower in my garden and give it to me. So we walked the garden and his picked the Mandeville flower that you see in my hair. 
Our walk through the garden!


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