Tonight's picture was taken on Halloween of 2004. Mattie was two and half and by this point he understood the whole notion of Halloween. Though that said, Mattie disliked candy, therefore, he wasn't as eager as other kids to go and collect it! Unlike Mattie, I am all about the sugar. We were the perfect team...because at birthday parties and other celebrations when Mattie was handed cake to eat, he literally would bring it to me because he did not want it.
That year, Mattie and I went to Target and we picked out this cute Winnie the Pooh sweatsuit. We loved Pooh stories and to me Mattie will always be the cutest Pooh around.
Quote of the day: God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December. ~ J.M. Barrie
My former mother-in-law established this tradition for us. I would never have thought about purchasing an inflatable for the yard. But she sent us our first pumpkin inflatable in 2021, and since then I love seeing one in the front flower bed. I try to display an inflatable in this position for all the seasonal holidays!
This weekend, I have also been focused on finalizing the Foundation's holiday letter that goes out to our steadfast supporters. The holiday letter was something I always worked on with my other half. So literally I think this letter was triggering for me this weekend. It put me in a terrible mood, because it is a reminder that I now do this work alone. The mass mailing is a large undertaking, but I try to do it in stages during the week of Thanksgiving.
As always, I took my parents out to brunch today. While at the restaurant, we found out that one of the servers who we love, just got promoted to a manager. So he came over to chat with us while we were eating. I thoroughly appreciated having a person to converse with and we talked about all sorts of things. He is a foodie too, so we had a good time talking about foods and desserts. He even gave me a piece of pumpkin cheesecake to take home! However, while helping my parents to the car, my dad had an irritable bowel accident. Most days I handle it, but tonight's incident set me over the edge. I literally had a meltdown. Dealing with these irritable bowel episodes are debilitating and it is a literally reminder of how awful my life is, yet Vicki is always supposed to be the mature and responsible one, and take on every one's issues. Well tonight, for about ten minutes, you would have concluded that Vicki is going to have a breakdown. Of course in my head is the constant dialogue...... I never signed up to do ANY of this alone! I am not sure who I have ticked off up there..... but to lose a child and then to lose a spouse in the worst way possible, is enough to make me feel like I am going crazy.
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