Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2008. That day Mattie worked hard on creating this prop plane out of tinker toys! As you can see, he was very proud of his creation. All I can say was life was never boring with Mattie Brown!
Quote of the day: You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. ~ CS Lewis
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Last night, I was in my pajamas, but I put my boots and coat on and literally walked up the block to find out exactly what was going on! When I got there I interacted with two neighbors... a man who was walking his dog and the actual person who called the paramedics. Turns out someone fell outside on black ice and she broke her leg. But you want to know what? The woman who called 911 was thrilled to talk to me and was so happy someone took an interest and wanted to help! So now I have met a new neighbor who I never knew before! Perhaps it is just me, but if I see a problem, I want to know what the problem is and I want to know if I can be of assistance.
This morning, I got up at 5:30am. I will need to do this for the next several days, because of back to back doctor appointments. Today my dad was scheduled to see the cardiology nurse who is working hard at stabilizing his heart condition. She is an absolute love, knowledgeable and professional. While waiting for her, the room had a computer screen that flashed tonight's CS Lewis quote. Somehow reading it made me smile, mainly because I consider the best years of my life are over.
The nurse was very pleased with my dad's progress. But then she spent about 15 minutes chatting with us about personal things. I learned that her husband is in the Coast Guard and as such she has been stationed all over the place. Her son is living in Brooklyn and she is originally from North Carolina. That is where she would like to go to retire and she and her husband are talking about their next chapter together. I am not sure what happened in my mind, but the notion of North Carolina and retirement flipped a switch. Some times in my mind, I still think I am married. I know.... crazy as that sounds. Legally I am not married, but morally I am through the Catholic Church. When someone is in your life for 35 years, it is the natural thing to think of them and turn to them with thoughts, feelings, and memories. I can't tell you how many times we visited the beaches of North Carolina together and I always imagined that in retirement we would travel to different place and have adventures together. Not having my other half has robbed my future and instead has only left a complete blank, a hole, and emptiness ahead. I feel lost and the grief from this loss is indescribable. Any case, the nurse's dialogue today sent me for a tailspin. You wouldn't know if by looking at me, as I hold all my angst inside.
Later today, I had to interface with PayPal. The Foundation has a PayPal account, however, the account was not associated with my email address and cell phone number. Therefore I couldn't access it! Despite my best attempts, there was nothing I could do to access this account. PayPal sent me instructions for what I needed to do, which meant writing a formal letter and submitting copies of my social security number and my driver's license. I wasn't THRILLED having to do it, but considering it was for the Foundation I did it! PayPal said they would contact me in a week to ten days after receiving the mailing. They didn't so I called customer service today! When I tell you I was screaming for an hour, I am NOT KIDDING. Though I wrote a formal letter, they would not change the email and phone number associated with the account. Instead, they kept saying that I needed the code sent to a phone number I did not have access to. Honestly it was mind numbing. After an hour of screaming, after mailing countless documents to them, at the end of the day, I shut down the Foundation's account and then created a whole new PayPal account today. A thorough waste of time, which could have been averted if they knew their own system and policy!
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