Tonight's picture was taken in March of 2005. Mattie was almost three years old. That weekend we took Mattie to Bunnyland at Butler's Orchard in Maryland. This was one of Mattie's favorite spring time events to attend. He loved the farm setting, the hayrides, the mazes, the hands on activities, and of course the Easter Egg hunt. Naturally, if Mattie loved something, so did I, and I enjoyed experiencing things through his eyes! Mattie's curiosity, energy, and joy for life was contagious and will always be missed.
Quote of the day: Stop a minute, right where you are. Relax your shoulders, shake your head and spine like a dog shaking off cold water. Tell that imperious voice in your head to be still. ~ Barbara Kingsolver
Today was a blur. By the time I got my dad downstairs for breakfast, I felt worn out. But then my mom was screaming from upstairs. When I went to find out what she was yelling about, I could see that the room she gets dressed in had a trail of tiny ants. Since it is on the second floor, this is unusual. This particular room has never had an ant problem. Therefore I was perplexed. The only thing I could deduce was a piece of food fell off her clothing and the ants found it overnight. There are two seasons in which the ants come marching in. Typically it only happens on the first floor by my office. Any case, I went upstairs with vinegar and Clorox (yes the two products that burnt my nasal passages in January). Clorox is the only thing that destroys ant trails. I cleaned up the floor and since I was up there, I vacuumed the whole second floor and then cleaned my bathroom and my mom's. That wasn't on my to-do list today, but I accomplished that task.
I took my parents out for a late lunch, which is our typical Saturday plan. But when I got home, after getting my parent's settled, Indie fed, and laundry folded, I went outside to the front yard. I spent two hours outside cleaning out the flower beds. Several of the scrubs in the front yard got burned from the snow. This happened last year too. They look so pathetic and dead, but I learned the art of cutting back the dead stuff so that new growth can occur. So I went at it today. It would be nice to have a gadget to do the work, but I did all the cutting by hand with garden shears! I can be more accurate that way! While outside, I could hear kids playing and outdoor grills cooking beef. Normally these would be happy spring time occurrences, but to me these are reminders of how different my life is now. I used to love having food cooked outside on the grill. We used to do this often, but now that I am divorced, I have no idea how the grill works and frankly I am in no mood to take that on. There are many things that I miss about not being married and being a mom, and I do not know when my head and heart will accept this reality.
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