Tonight's picture was taken in April of 2004. Mattie was two years old and that day we went outside to our deck! Mattie loved his frog sandbox and I can't tell you how much time we spent outside on our deck in all seasons! After Mattie died, we put this frog sandbox outside our deck door, in the commons area. It never dawned on me that other kids in the complex would come and play with it! I remember the first time I saw other kids touching Mattie's toys and playing outside our door, it was a sickening feeling. As if Mattie's memory was being disturbed and violated. However, over time, that feeling, softened and I began to appreciate these visits by other children. I felt that Mattie would be happy that others were enjoying his box as much as he was! But that took LOTS of time and reflection for me to get there!
Quote of the day: By the darkness, stars are revealed. ~ Evette Carter
When I get into bed at night, I have Indie right beside me! In fact, now she is staying the whole night with me. But literally I get into bed and within minutes, I am out! Of course my migraine medication helps with that. I am so exhausted that the position in which I fall asleep is the same position in which I wake up! Today I was dragging, but I had to get out of bed, get things going, because my dad's wound care nurse was coming over at 10am. Thankfully my daily cleanings and care of his pressure sores are helping tremendously. In fact the nurse said to me today that she has never seen such successful healing in four days time! I am vigilant with the process because I know if I do not get a handle on this, these sores can quickly spiral out of control.
I always have high hopes that I am going to be able to focus and accomplish something! However, when my dad is home, it is literally impossible. In addition, I was juggling house issues and people coming over to help me! When other people are in the house, I literally have no peace. Then on top of that, I was on the phone with Verizon. I have been locked out of my portal. This is day two of me trying to get this resolved. The first person I contacted yesterday said they put in a ticket to resolve the issue, but I learned today that they didn't! Today's agent was lovely and she promises to call me back once the tech team evaluates my issue! She too couldn't get into my account! It is hysterical, as I am paying for a service, but the system says I do not have an account! Of course while I was talking to Verizon my dad had two bathroom accidents and my mom was screaming and unable to help him. Seriously this may not sound bad, but you have to see it to understand the chaos.
Later today, Steve, the fellow that helps me with all things outside came back to try to correct my broken sprinklers. He let me know that he services many homes, but my backyard is his favorite! He says it is so beautiful and peaceful! That made me smile, because as I always say.... I fell in love with the outside of this house before I ever saw the inside of it in 2021.
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