Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

October 10, 2024

Thursday, October 10, 2024

Thursday, October 10, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2003. Mattie was a year and a half old. At this particular fall festival, they had a petting zoo. Look at Mattie's face! To me it was priceless, as he wasn't sure what to make out of this pig. He was observing, but not comfortable enough to touch it. What I do know is that I loved exploring the world with Mattie and through his eyes. 


Quote of the day: When we have no reason to be happy, we often think that it is the end of ourselves. We often think we have no one in this world. It happens when our loved ones leave us and make us alone in this vast universe. ~ Debolina


It was another winner of a day.  I have arranged for someone to come over tomorrow to look at our furnace and thermostat, as I am having trouble with heat getting to the second floor. Every time, I deal with the heating and cooling professionals, my heart is in my mouth, because it usually means a costly repair. As for the freezer and range issues, I spoke to our Thermador repair fellow and he is ordering a part, in hopes it easily corrects the problem. Nothing is typically easy for me, but I know I have to be on top of these home repairs, otherwise, if I push it down the road, only more things will arise and pile up on each other. This house is a full time endeavor of trouble and heartache. 

This evening, I went for my weekly therapy session. In about a month, I will have been working with this therapist for a almost a year. Do I find it helpful? NO! No fault of the therapist, my situation is just horrific, and unfortunately most of you who read this blog do not know the full extent of the destruction I have been faced with and have been forced to deal with. With the emphasis on forced. None of us like when we have no control over certain decisions and when life choices are being made for us. 

When I got home from therapy, I was in the process of dealing with dinner, when my dad started moving toward the bathroom. He won't go to the bathroom unless I am home. He refuses to go with my mom. Make a long story short, it was a bathroom disaster, of four bouts of diarrhea. It was so awful, that he stressed me out so much that I started screaming. I can't even sit with a thought or feeling for one second, without dealing with bathroom issues. When I finally got my dad to the dinner table, he refused to eat. My dad said he wasn't hungry and became attitudinal. At which point, I got him up and back to his recliner. There was no reasoning with him, and frankly I did not have the energy to get him to eat. Tomorrow is another day of more of the same.... more intense caregiving, chores, tasks, cleaning, cooking, repair issues, bill paying, and heartache. I am stuck in a terrible Groundhog's day, with no hope of waking up to learn that what I have been living with is just a bad dream. 

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