Tonight's picture was taken in September of 2008. This was before Mattie had any of his surgeries, and was still able to move around and walk independently. I was playing music off of my laptop computer and Mattie was thoroughly enjoying dancing to the tunes. Clearly being attached to an IV pump did not slow him down! Also notice in the background were several cardboard boxes near the door. Mattie trained the Georgetown Staff early on that all packing boxes should not be thrown away, but instead used to develop a Mattie creation!
Poem of the day: The Words of a Child by Charlie Brown
The words of a child speak wisdom
For in his heart is truth
He knows the meaning of friendship
In a way that adults have lost
Willing to admit to love
Not worrying about the words
Holding on to the feelings
Knowing death is not the end
So when you have the chance
To attend to the words of a child
Don't dismiss them for their simplicity
But embrace them for their truth.
As is typical with my delayed reaction to things, I am now feeling the after math of having the Walk behind me. Planning the Walk kept me extremely busy, interacting with people, and focused on a goal and objective. With that behind me, I find that I am exhausted and also experiencing grief on a grander scale. For some reason today, I had flashbacks of Mattie experiencing pain, and how Peter and I had to manage this pain with pain pumps attached to Mattie at home. I am not sure why my mind wondered there, but it did.
I spent the entire day doing chores, from laundry to cleaning out one of my closets. When Mattie was diagnosed with cancer and beyond, I let things around me just pile up. My closets are jammed packed with things, and my clothes closets, which used to be so organized, were in shambles. So much so that for almost two years now, my clothes have been stacked all around me. Though Mattie has been gone for 8 months, I hadn't addressed this problem until today. I spent hours on this one project, and though my clothes are back within a closet, there is still so much around me that needs to be organized. But I can only take on one project at a time.