Saturday, December 19, 2009
Tonight's picture features Mattie in December 2007, standing in front of our Nation's Christmas Tree. This tree is always displayed in front of the White House. The Nation's tree is the beautiful and tall tree behind Mattie, however, you may notice that there is a smaller tree immediately behind Mattie. In fact there are 50 smaller trees, one for each of our 50 States, that surround the Nation's tree. Each of these 50 trees is decorated with ornaments from the State it represents. The night we headed to see the tree was absolutely frigid, yet despite that, Mattie enjoyed this adventure and seeing the lights.
Grief can and does knock me down at times, and today was one of those days. As Charlie's poem reflects, grief can leave you breathless, filled with memories, and at times it is hard to imagine ever feeling better. I was on the Internet today, and by accident, I landed on some promotion for Veggie Tales. Mattie loved this video series, and in fact, toward the end of his life, he couldn't fall asleep at night without me next to him and watching a Veggie Tales movie. Those nights seemed endless to me, however, now I long for those nights, because that would mean Mattie were still alive. It is amazing how a talking cucumber and tomato (characters featured in Veggie Tales) at one time made me smile, and now only bring me intense sadness.