Sunday, July 23, 2023

Sunday, July 23, 2023 -- Mattie was diagnosed with cancer 15 years ago today. 

Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2008. Mattie was diagnosed with bone cancer on July 23, 2008, and days after, he underwent a bone biopsy to confirm the diagnosis. In this photo, you can see Mattie was examining his bandage and eagerly wanted to have it removed. 

Quote of the day: In the gardens of memory, the palaces of dreams, this is where we will meet. ~ Alice Through the Looking Glass

A day NEVER to be forgotten, July 23, 2008! A day that changed our lives FOREVER! Fifteen years ago today, Mattie was diagnosed with Osteosarcoma (bone cancer). In July of 2008, Mattie was enrolled in a tennis camp. A week into the camp, Mattie complained of arm pain. We figured he sprained something or had a sore muscle from holding the tennis racket.

While enrolled in camp, I attended a conference in San Diego. Each night while I was away I checked in with Peter and I continued to hear that Mattie's arm pain wasn't getting better. Before leaving San Diego, I made a doctor's appointment to take Mattie in the day after I landed back home.

Fortunately Mattie's pediatrician took our complaints seriously, as I told her the issue had been going on for two weeks, with no improvement. From the doctor's office, we walked over to Virginia Hospital Center for x-rays. I admit that I got very frustrated with the radiology tech, because what I deemed should be an easy x-ray process turned into an hour long fiasco.

After the x-rays were taken, the tech told me to go to a waiting room. I will NEVER forget this room. Mattie and I walked into a room filled with adults. NO hospital representative was in the room, only patients and ONE phone. We sat down and within five minutes the phone rang. NO ONE went to answer the phone, it just kept on ringing. So I decided to pick it up. 

On the other end of the phone line was the radiologist, who asked for Mattie Brown's mom. When I told him I was Mattie's mom, he then said I needed to go right back to the pediatrician's office. I said, ABSOLUTELY NOT! I wasn't leaving that room until he told me what he saw on those x-rays. He did not want to tell me, but I forced it out of him. So I heard that Mattie had osteosarcoma over the phone, surrounded by a group of strangers and Mattie staring at me. I tried not to sound alarmed but it's a bit hard after hearing...... your child has cancer.

July 23, 2008, was my first experience with medical trauma, and unfortunately that was just one of many traumas we experienced as a family. You maybe asking what's with these photos and the Christmas lights in July? Mattie requested that we take all our Christmas lights out on diagnosis day. He did not understand cancer, but he knew enough to know that something was very wrong and that the bright lights of Christmas may help lift all our spirits. The beauty of Mattie Brown..... you are dearly missed today and always. 

It maybe 15 years ago, but the pain of Mattie's loss is felt forever. Our lives and future have been permanently changed. We will never forget. Mattie legacy lives on brightly as he has taught me that Childhood Cancer is NOT Just About the Medicine!